Painful cramps 6-11dpo docs not helped :( Am I obsessing?!?

[Dragonfly12]

Hiya, I did try posting this somewhere else on this site...this is my first hour on here so bear with me if I get things wrong lol!
I am mum to two gorgeous girlies aged 6 and 3 and I have recently started (this last cycle) TTC baby #3. (You would think I would be used to this baby-making malarky lol but my two were not planned - although very much loved )
SO, here's the thing: I am 11dpo today and the fact that I know this is a shock in itself but I had ovulation spotting for the first time in my life (so excited!!) I am far too busy for charting....well I am not but I think my other half would accuse me of over thinking everything!! Jumping forward a few days and here come the horrible cramps!! Started last Wednesday (6dpo) with sharp twinges on right side (same side as O pain) and have since just become awful dull/strong/sickening cramps that stay constantly I have had heavy egg-white CM for last 5 days or so (not smelly or anything) Nausea and dizzyness. Fatigue is INTENSE! Lower back pain and cramps are the worst though...really getting me down. So much so, that I went to the docs today to rule out UTI - she tested me, and urine is clear but because of my discharge she did a painful internal to take swabs in case of infection before having a root around in there (even with her hands!!!!!!) to the point where I was squeaking at her to stop!! Pressing hard on my lower tummy was agony and I am now slumped on sofa feeling very sorry for myself. Brutal is not the word! Are they supposed to do that when you have said you think you may be pregnant?!?

Also key point - my boobs were so sore with my first two and that was my ONLY sign for weeks into pregnancy, they are also sore for at least a week before af and yet they are not sore at all now (5days before af).
Did HPT 10dpo with FMU and got a very grumpy BFN

Maybe I am just making this all up in my head but I really feel pregnant. Other half doesn't think I am and it makes it really hard to sit here and just 'wait' before I will get a BFP Sorry for ranting, ladies, I know everybody on here needs advice etc and so I thought this would be the place for me to get some support! Am I over obsessing already??? What will cycles 2,3,etc be like if I am like this now?!!?
xxx

 

[jodie34]

Hi hun , I'm sorry I carnt give u any answers about the cramping , but I know how you feel its so hard , I'm cycle 9 I think but we were casually trying for a while before we got serious about it , I'm like a mad woman every month , doesn't help this month as my inquisitive lil boy decided to fill the sink and dunk all my opks lol only had one left so used that I think we dtd the right time but oh boy am I suffering for the last few days I've got such intense lower back pain its agony , my boobs are sore and I have quite a bit of creamy coloured discharge also and usually I never have nothing after ov , the nauseau has kicked in , just gone to eat a peppermint areo my fav choccy and nearly threw up oh the joys lol , oh dear I'm waffling on just wanted to let you know ur not on your own and your not over obsessing already most of us do it lol , I'm 12dpo period is due friday I so what to do a test but carnt bare to see the bfn xx