I'm not coping very well...

[Ruthie]

I know I am going to ramble in this post so I will apologise straight away...

In a nut shell I can't stop thinking about this pregnancy going wrong and how horrible it will be if it does.

I had a scan 2 weeks ago and there was a heartbeat which was great but I wonder whether it's still there... I am waiting on my next appointment with the Consultant as this pregnancy is meant to be overseen by her because of the previous mc's. I phoned the hospital on Monday to see whether one had been made yet and whoever I spoke to wasn't very sympathetic and basically told me I might not be seen for another 3 or 4 weeks... I can't wait that long... The mc before the last one was at 9 weeks but the baby stopped growing at 5 weeks... I couldn't bare it if the same happened again and I thought I was still pregnant but actually wasn't anymore.

My symptoms seem to have decreased a bit over the last day or so and it is really worrying me....

I am thinking of just going to the hospital tomorrow.. do you think they'll see me at the EPU?

I know I am getting myself slowly into a panic and that isn't good...

Any advice, thoughts would be welcomed...

 

[AllieW]

If you need the reassurance, then you're not going to lose by going to the hospital. I'm sure they will see you, particularly with your history.

I'm sure that I've noticed other women on the forum whose symptoms have lessened at 8 weeks, so in all probability your LO is absolutely fine. (Although I do understand why you would worry).

Thinking of you hun.

 

[Babylicious]

 

[Louise1973]

Hi there,

So sorry you're having a hard time.

I've had 2 MC's which was bad enough... Like you - one of those times the embryo stopped developing at around 7wks, but I didn't naturally miscarry so didn't know anything was wrong til the 12 week dating scan. After which I opted for an operation to remove the placenta etc. which was still growing.

This time round I asked for an early scan, but wasn't allowed one on NHS cos I'd 'only' had 2 MC's. Instead I paid to have a scan at 8weeks privately & thankfully there's a heartbeat. My next scan is in 2 weeks.

I know it's really hard if you've had bad experiences before, but I'm trying to treat this pregnancy as a fresh start. There's no reason to believe that anything's wrong and stressing at this time isn't good for the baby. I've seen the heartbeat - which I've never had before so I'm just keeping everything crossed and trying to be positive that this time round it's a keeper.

If you really feel the need for reassurance then do go to the hospital, they are there to help. I really hope that everything works out for you this time around.

 

[Kimberly]

I just wanted to send you some hugs. I'm sure it must be very hard, but try not to worry too much.

 

[fifi211]

I agree with AllieW you have nothing to lose by going to the hospital and they should be able to put your mind at rest.

Thinking of you and hope you feel better soon

 

[Ruthie]

Thanks for your replies ladies...

I am trying to stay positive but it is so hard not to also think about what if's...

I will sleep on it tonight and maybe take a day off work tomorrow and go to the EPU...

Thanks for your good wishes... it's great to be able to get advice and to 'off load' to people who are impartial and often in the same boat...