I have finally accepted ....

[Vickyxx]

that the chances of me conceiving naturally are pretty unlikely!!

I tried to remain positive after being diagnosed with pcos and listened to people when they said not to lose hope as it can still happen, I wanted to believe that my body could do what it was supposed to, but in my head I know that the only way I am going to get pregnant is by medical intervention!!

After a mass cock up thanks to the good old NHS I am now in the back of the queue again to see the fertility specialist after already waiting three weeks to hear something ... long story short the referral letter got lost, there was no record of me on the system blah blah .... I am now seeing a specialist at a hospital over an hours drive away.

I am to scared to request one closer in case I am put to the back of the queue again .... I mean seriously how hard is it to send a letter ... I would do it my bloody self if I was allowed and even now I still dont know if its all been sorted as the secretary of the specialist I am seeing phoned me to say she has my appointment request but not the referral letter .....FFS!!

So thats where I am at, have to wait 7 weeks for my appt in April, I havent had a period since December, have completely given up on looking for signs of ovulation as that always ends in disappointment ...

Ohhh and on top of it all I got made redundant from work .. on Valentines day!!!

I feel very defeated and useless at the moment, especially knowing its all my fault that we cant concieve, couldnt give two shits about my job I hated it anyway, just wish other people would pull their fingers out their arses and do their jobs properly!!

 

[pinkies101]

weve been ttc for 2 years, after i found out i had pcos, its been a long road and iv only just been sent to the fertilty clinic in january this year, its hard when people say just wait ur turn itll happen!
the good thing is with pcos they know what and how to go about things i expect your first thing will be to be put on clomid to increase ovulation, then see how it goes from there,
aparantly pcos isnt such a bad thing as long as they know what it is, its just that it does take longer but not impossible! xx

 

[maybe baby]

Hey Vicky,

Sorry to hear about your appointment Hun, I hope you get sorted, I've been quite lucky with my referral as that came back but they were shit with my smear that took 10 weeks, and now I think I'll have to have treatment that can mess up TTC!

Hey I have a 7 week wait too as after my treatment I'll not be allowed sex for 6 weeks- we can be 7WW buddies!! Yay!!

Anyway, like I said to Chaz, it will happen for us it will just take a bit longer and need a bit of help.

I think we need a taking our mind of LTTTC thread....

xx

 

[positivity :)]

sorry u are having such a crap time vickyxx lets hope the time flies for you xxxxxxxxx

 

[Vickyxx]

Thanks ladies. I actually feel strangely better by giving up on naturally trying to conceive, when we have sex its for the pleasure of it not just to try and make a baby, and by having a specialist date I now have something real to focus on. Maybe I hope they don't mess you about to much with your smear tests, is nice to have a 7 week buddy x x

 

[LouiseB]

Vickyxx, i honestly believe this the the best place to be.

Just accepting the situation for what it is and reviewing your options and passing the buck - it is someone else's job to get us pregnant, and it's such a weight off

I don't think you're over-reacting.

I can't even remember if it's two cycles or even three that me and hubby haven't ttc'd - that is how little i'm paying attention. Not my problem lol

We decided to just have a go again this cycle after we've been told we have a wait, and already i'm feeling frickin stressed out of my mind.

Try not to worry about blame. You didn't choose to have PCOS so it isn't your fault. It's just life. Everyone has something to deal with

I'm sorry you got made redundant and the referral "got lost", i know first hand what it's like to be jerked around regarding timescale. It's so upsetting xx

 

[misscrazycooki]

Hey hun not to rub in your face (since I have just had a baby) but I was told I had pcos last year in march april time, after a day 21 blood test and ultrasound scan, Funnyily enough though I lied to my doctor saying I'd been with same partner for more than a year but I honestly had been trying for years with several partners... I got sent to the fertilty clinic for the scan, then was due for an xray on my tubes to see if they were blocked but I never got there since I got pregnant.

I felt the same as you totally failure as my body wasn't doing its job right after being told i didn't ovulate on my last cycle on the day 21 blood test and then the ultrasouns scan showing I had PCOS.

Don't lose hope hun you CAN get pregnant naturally, I mean the way I got pregnant might not have been legalish and ideal but me and my partner smoked cannabis (I quit as soon as I found out I was pregnant, not touched it since) But I got pregnant around my birthday I was totally smashed on booze and cannabis which helped my stress levels and I wasn't even worrying about getting pregnant. then I found out the next month bang it happened... strangly I wished on my cake for a baby :$ x

 

[Vickyxx]

I completley agree Louise, knowing that someone else is now in control of it all rather then myself makes it feel more real to me ... in a weird way!!

I still feel down about it, but I have complete faith that once I see the doctor he will make it happen, once I am given clomid then that will be it for us ... the idea that it wont work hasnt even entered my head, I am no way ready to deal with that concept!!

Misscrazycookie, I wish I still could believe that it could happen and I am so happy that it did for you, but reality is what reality is, I dont smoke, drink, take drugs, I have only had two periods in 6 months, ovulation impossible to detect (if at all) close to a year of trying already .... I just cant see it happening!!!

 

[Esperanza84]

Hi Viccyxx! Can I be your 7 weeks of wait buddy too? I have a referral to a specialist in April as well and same thing happened to me...the referral letter got lost, so been waiting for this appointment a loong time!

I have a friend who was diagnosed with pcos and her husband had "bad" swimmers, but she's pregnant now (IVF) and have a healthy pregnancy. This comforts me, because I hope that even thought it might take some time, I know we eventually will have our baby as well. And if we find out after the test results in April that it's impossible, we'll just have to get a baby from Africa or something

It's good to at least be in the system of help, even though it take some time!

Wish you all the best of luck hun! We'll just have to try and entertain each other for the next 7 weeks

Massive

 

[Vickyxx]

Join the club sweetie is always nice to have people around who know exactly what you are going through. What day in April is your appt? mine is the 18th, exactly 10 weeks since my referral was sent so it has been a long wait for me to. Fingers crossed we both respond well to treatment and who knows maybe we will be clomid buddies too x x

 

[Chazabell]

Awww hun, *big hugs* we are all here for you whenever you want to rant, gloat, offload and moan.

My friends wife got diagnosed with endrometiosis <---- not sure of spelling. And got told she's probably never going to have children....and now she has 3 beautiful girls, no medical help needed.

Stay strong xxxx

 

[Esperanza84]

Join the club sweetie is always nice to have people around who know exactly what you are going through. What day in April is your appt? mine is the 18th, exactly 10 weeks since my referral was sent so it has been a long wait for me to. Fingers crossed we both respond well to treatment and who knows maybe we will be clomid buddies too x x

Mine is the 12th of April. Went to the doctor in January, got a referral (I thought) - phoned the specialist in February and I wasn't in their system

But now I am, so hopefully they will figure out what's going on there and send hubby to check his swimmers

Fingers crossed for all of you lovely ladies! Lets hope our time is not far away!