Hey Everyone... Anyone else just feel YUCK?

[LexaEll]

Hello there guys i'm new to the forum - sorry in advance for the moaning!

I'm exactly 8 weeks today (still finding it hard to believe after trying for nearly two years!). I feel awful and ungrateful in a way for saying this but i feel like absolute rubbish! I know this is supposed to be the most happy time and i should be excited but the way i'm feeling at the minute i just feel depressed and awful!

I can't seem to eat anything, the only thing i can just about manage are rice crispies or well done toast with no butter and even then it just wants to come straight back up! I feel sick all day, every day. SMELLS - i currently walk round with a scarf constantly wrapped round my face to protect me from any susprise scents my nose may pick up on (if someone opens the fridge or the coffee canister i make a run for it). I constantly feel breathless and when i get to the top of the steps i stand there panting like a dog (you would think i was about 36 weeks, nope just 8, i'm out of breath over something the size of a raspberry!). All i want to do is sleep, OH gets into bed with me at around 8pm and im already laid there snoring and dribbling apparently! (Attractive i know). I keep getting stupid ectopic heart beats, i have these even when im not pregnant (long story but i had atrial fibrillation a few years ago and take beta blockers to keep this at bay - even more stress with being pregnant) but just to add to all the fun they've decided to really kick in now to make sure i'm having a fab time! :/ My anxiety is through the roof, i was taking sertraline to help with this but stopped them as soon as i found out, which im now thinking was a bad idea . I've already had to visit a&e twice, once because i suddenly was getting pink discharge when i wiped and awful pain on my left side - had a scan, examination, swabs and everything was fine (saw a little tiny heart fluttering away ) . The second time was today because of my breathlessness and ectopics - did an ecg, chest xray and bloods and told me everything looked fine, although said i was really dehydrated and needed iv fluids (lovely).

Im so so sorry for moaning and im really not ungrateful at all as we've waited so long for this. i want to be feeling excited and over the moon but at the minute i really do just feel a zombie! I have my fingers and toes crosses that all this gets better soon or starts to ease off and pray that i will be able to eat normal food at somepoint soon as im losing weight by the second, ive already lost nearly a stone since i found out 3 weeks ago(If i miss my christmas dinner i'm going to cry haha).

I hope i'm not on my own! I would love some advice/reassurance from someone who is going through/ been through the same!

Again sorry for whinging! Im not usually this negative at all, i just feel so poorly not pregnant!

xx

 

[MissCindy]

Hi LexaEll, I only got my BFP this week, also after 2 years of trying! But as it's still very much early days for me, I'm not feeling sick yet. However, if that's any comfort, I read yesterday that morning sickness usually reaches its peak by 9-10 weeks and then eases off. So, if all goes well, you should feel better very soon and be able to enjoy your Christmas dinner!

 

[WinterWolf]

Being pregnant sucks - saying it out loud doesn't make you ungrateful. Yes it's a blessing to be able to carry a baby, but it is seriously rough on your body. You're allowed to feel upset about that. For many women trimester one is awful. Months of constant nausea, vomiting, erratic moods and inability to eat anything but crackers would make anyone feel a bit down!! I felt exactly like that in tri 1 and said I'm never having another baby after this because it's hell! I'll probably change my mind after delivery but I 100% understand how you feel. Don't beat yourself up for not being overjoyed that you feel like rubbish. It will get better in tri 2 (I felt mostly normal again at 17 weeks) and that's when all the happiness kicks in x

 

[millielaura]

I agree with winter wolf! My daughter took 2.5 years and I had hyperemesis with her and it was hell! This time I tried for a year and was really sick first half of pregnancy although not quite as bad as my daughter. Nothing ungreatful about not enjoying pregnancy! I think it’s a lot harder when you’ve tried a while because then you feel guilty for not being happy and enjoying it when really there is no need to feel guilty as no one would enjoy feeling sick all day everyday for weeks on end! With my daughter I had a ton of ectopic beats and could barely stand without my heart racing , they just put it down to pregnancy in the end. I have anxiety too and also came off sertraline early this pregnancy. Pregnancy really is so hard, first trimester is horrible for sickness and for anxiety but into second tri it does start to get a bit better. I’ve felt ok from about 20-27 weeks both times. Then starts getting hard again third trimester but nothing like the sickness in first tri thank god!! I also will not have another baby because of pregnancy, I can’t do it again especially the first trimester sickness! Hang in there, it will get better! Maybe contact the charity Pregnancy Sickness Support. I did this time and they were very helpful xxx