Got my first growth scan tomorrow afternoon then consultant after. Getting a little scared now as I don't look as big as what I feel I should. Worried the baby is small and I will have the same problems as with my son Dylan. Getting paranoid that my health problems, smoking before I knew I was expecting and history means I shouldn't have risked having another baby and it was just selfish of me! Paranoid I know but can't get the thoughts out of my head.