Am sorry I am joining the GGG post.
I dont know if am just having one of those days but today I just feel so lost and upset.
I have a group of 6 friends out of them all have had babies either last year or early this year. Only me and one of the other girls dont have children.... As you all know I am ttc.... I infact was the first one out of our group to try to concieve a baby and it looks like il also be the last one to acutally get pregant.
Its really depressing... whats more depressing is gone are the days all the girls were out for drinks etc,... i feel i cant participate in any of their conversations when we do meet up as its all about their children, as much as i love hearing all their stories and i soak up all the advice It makes me more upset i cant conceive. What kind of woman am i ?
Every weekend now unless i want to meet up for a coffee and listen to baby chat am stuck in my house myself or volunteer for overtime at work.
I know my friends have family now and they come first as oppose to nights out or shopping or weekends away... but there is nothing worse than sitting on your own weekend in and out with nobody to go out with.
I am not even that interested in going out on the razz i just want my friends to do some things we use to do even just now and again.
(My other close friend i told you about above she is now moving away due to uni)
Sure i have other friends.... but they are all agood 5 years younger than myself and there nights out are mad (perhaps abit mad for me as am fast approaching 24 so my nights out and idea of nights out are alot different to my young friends) then i have another group of freinds who are alot older and there nights out consist of the bingo, meal and few drinks and home by 11... not my idea of fun.
I guess i miss my friends and miss not having what they have.
I know eventually il have that baby....... that i dreadfully want.... and these little things wont bother me so much.
At moment i feel all alone.
I dont know if am just having one of those days but today I just feel so lost and upset.
I have a group of 6 friends out of them all have had babies either last year or early this year. Only me and one of the other girls dont have children.... As you all know I am ttc.... I infact was the first one out of our group to try to concieve a baby and it looks like il also be the last one to acutally get pregant.
Its really depressing... whats more depressing is gone are the days all the girls were out for drinks etc,... i feel i cant participate in any of their conversations when we do meet up as its all about their children, as much as i love hearing all their stories and i soak up all the advice It makes me more upset i cant conceive. What kind of woman am i ?
Every weekend now unless i want to meet up for a coffee and listen to baby chat am stuck in my house myself or volunteer for overtime at work.
I know my friends have family now and they come first as oppose to nights out or shopping or weekends away... but there is nothing worse than sitting on your own weekend in and out with nobody to go out with.
I am not even that interested in going out on the razz i just want my friends to do some things we use to do even just now and again.
(My other close friend i told you about above she is now moving away due to uni)
Sure i have other friends.... but they are all agood 5 years younger than myself and there nights out are mad (perhaps abit mad for me as am fast approaching 24 so my nights out and idea of nights out are alot different to my young friends) then i have another group of freinds who are alot older and there nights out consist of the bingo, meal and few drinks and home by 11... not my idea of fun.
I guess i miss my friends and miss not having what they have.
I know eventually il have that baby....... that i dreadfully want.... and these little things wont bother me so much.
At moment i feel all alone.