butterfly1
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Hi, just joined today so dont really know where to post. I will apologize now If this ends up being a long waffley post. I feel so alone and down ☹
I am 43. I have never been pregnant and dont know if I can have children. I have been trying for around 3 years.. I use trying loosely as I supposed me peeing on sticks and temping every day doesnt count as trying if other half cant manage to do the deed. Which is one of my issues. We do it once or twice a month, around time of ovulation and that it. He has no desire or sex drive at all and has to take a tablet to manage it at all. Which even if wasnt TTC its so upsetting. Anyway his sperm has been tested and its normal. I never bothered going to the dr as I just assumed it was the frequency that was the problem. However I have now been to the drs and I am absolutely kicking myself that I have left it so long ( I have a ridiculous fear of doctors) anyway I eventually went and they did day 3 and day 21 bloods. I was called back in and she said everything was normal apart from FSH level. The only thing I really remember hearing was pre menopausal and I just broke down crying my heart out in front of her. She did say usually LH and FSH level is high so results dont tally. She did confirm that I am still ovulating, and my periods are regular so I am so confused. Anyway I had to have bloods again. I dont know what the levels were first time but second time I asked and they were LH 5.6 (normal) but FSH was 10.7 ☹ I have to go and see her again on Thursday and I have an ultrasound booked and being referred to fertility clinic but have been told I am too old for IVF. I have felt so depressed since I saw her I just cant shake myself out of it.
There is a slight chance this could be my month though and I hope with all my heart it is before I have to go though all this fertility stuff. I ovulated really early. Day 8 confirmed with tests and temp. I had the most ewcm ever and the strongest line ever and amazing we managed to do the deed straight after (xmas eve) and also xmas day. I am now 7 DPO and stupidly took a test this morning . I know far too early, I just cant help myself. I need to wait until Jan 8th really.
Anyway there you go, thats me. I am so confused, down and kicking myself for only just going the doctors and time is literally running out, assuming its actually possible for me to get lucky.
Thanks for reading if you still are x
I am 43. I have never been pregnant and dont know if I can have children. I have been trying for around 3 years.. I use trying loosely as I supposed me peeing on sticks and temping every day doesnt count as trying if other half cant manage to do the deed. Which is one of my issues. We do it once or twice a month, around time of ovulation and that it. He has no desire or sex drive at all and has to take a tablet to manage it at all. Which even if wasnt TTC its so upsetting. Anyway his sperm has been tested and its normal. I never bothered going to the dr as I just assumed it was the frequency that was the problem. However I have now been to the drs and I am absolutely kicking myself that I have left it so long ( I have a ridiculous fear of doctors) anyway I eventually went and they did day 3 and day 21 bloods. I was called back in and she said everything was normal apart from FSH level. The only thing I really remember hearing was pre menopausal and I just broke down crying my heart out in front of her. She did say usually LH and FSH level is high so results dont tally. She did confirm that I am still ovulating, and my periods are regular so I am so confused. Anyway I had to have bloods again. I dont know what the levels were first time but second time I asked and they were LH 5.6 (normal) but FSH was 10.7 ☹ I have to go and see her again on Thursday and I have an ultrasound booked and being referred to fertility clinic but have been told I am too old for IVF. I have felt so depressed since I saw her I just cant shake myself out of it.
There is a slight chance this could be my month though and I hope with all my heart it is before I have to go though all this fertility stuff. I ovulated really early. Day 8 confirmed with tests and temp. I had the most ewcm ever and the strongest line ever and amazing we managed to do the deed straight after (xmas eve) and also xmas day. I am now 7 DPO and stupidly took a test this morning . I know far too early, I just cant help myself. I need to wait until Jan 8th really.
Anyway there you go, thats me. I am so confused, down and kicking myself for only just going the doctors and time is literally running out, assuming its actually possible for me to get lucky.
Thanks for reading if you still are x
on this forum you will find people in all walks of life with all sorts of challenges in conceiving, I hope it helps you feel less alone. Looking forward to seeing where this journey will lead, wishing you the best of luck.
