Hello, My names Julie and Im 21 (with a bit of a dilemma). Ive been with my partner for 3 years, known him for almost five and been living together (not quite in domestic bliss but were both still alive! ) for about 2 years. Weve talked about the future and we want children and to be together forever and get married etc. but I think he sees these things as distant things, way off in the future. And Im late. I am/was on the pill (havent restarted the pack since my 7 day break when my period didnt make an appearance) and I am well aware its not 100% and made my partner aware too. I did a pregnancy test two days after my period was meant to start but it was negative (although it was a cheapy one off the internet!). Since then I havent done anything. I still dont know how I feel. Lots of emotions; scared, excited, confused, young! As well as very excessively tired and nauseous all the time. Yuck! I dont feel too bad in myself about this but I am scared of telling my partner, Im sure he will think I have done it on purpose because I always coo over babies. He is definitely not ready for a baby and Im not sure if he will come round to it. It wasnt an ideal time to happen as I was looking for a new job (as my current one is incredibly stressful) but if I am pregnant, I guess I will have to stay as I will need the maternity pay (not sure how these things work?) Also, we are not in an ideal situation. We rent the two bedroom maisonette we live in and although we have a fairly comfortable life, it would be rather stretched to manage on just Neils income. Also, he is a manager of a shop and works between 50 and 70 hours a week and Im not sure that wouldnt end up grating on me if we had a baby. *sigh* The first day of my last period was 20th January. Being on the pill, I have a very regular 28 day cycle and have never missed periods. I was ill (a bug going round) during early January, which looking back now, could have affected the effectiveness of the pill I suppose? Im scared of doing a test. If it is positive, it all becomes very real and I have to tell Neil. If it is negative, I think I will, truth be told, be very upset and it will be hard explaining that, I dont think he understands my feelings. If I dont do any test, I can continue without saying anything, as I dont really know anything but I wouldnt have any support (currently a few arguments because Im so sleepy and irritable all the time!) and Id be worried that if I am pregnant the baby would have no antenatal care. Im very close to my mum, but she miscarried a baby (she had me when she was 17 so is still young herself) 6 months ago and I dont know how to broach the subject. I suppose (having written it all down and been able to tell someone finally, even if I dont know any of you! ) things arent so bad. If Im pregnant Im happy about and want to see it through, even if the worst came to the worst and I ended up single and had to move back in with my mum and family (mum, dad, two brothers, two sisters aged 14, 12, 10 and 3). I hope it doesnt come to that though. In fact, I could not be pregnant (sorry for wasting your time, if that is the case). I suppose really Im mostly confused and have lots of mixed up emotions and no-one to talk to. I cant share how Im feeling with Neil, as I feel I am going to have to be the strong one to approach that and I dont know how to tell my mum, yet. Im not sure if I want anyone else to know yet but I really wanted to talk to someone about it. I hope you dont mind, and I hope you dont think bad of me if Im not pregnant. Sorry.