Am I crazy?!

[Cookie84]

So I am currently just over 13 weeks pregnant following a miscarriage this exact time last year at six weeks. Ever since I've found out I've been both excited and horribly anxious. I've felt sick pretty much the whole way through. We only just told our parents last weekend and no one else knows because I'm so scared of jinxing it.



I have already had two private scans to try and reassure me at 9 and 12 weeks and both were fine. Yet I still can't relax! Im ok for about 48 hours after a scan and then the anxiety returns! I've been sat here considering another scan which I know is madness and I think my husband thinks I'm driving myself crazy but he understands. My first NHS scan is not for another week and a half and I've been so disappointed with them so far. They forgot to refer me for my scan, hence why its so late! And if you ever need to call anyone no one answers. I appreciate they're busy but I just feel I can't get reassurance anywhere and I just wish I could relax and enjoy everything! Anyone else felt this level of anxiety?

 

[millielaura]

Yes with my daughter I never felt reassured properly until she was here I must have had about 25 scans with her! Xx

 

[Cookie84]

Oh I’m glad it’s not just me!! Were they private scans or NHS? I’m going to be bankrupt if I don’t rein it in! The thing is I don’t know how else to reassure myself that everything’s ok at this stage!

 

[millielaura]

Some where nhs but quite a few private ones! I spent a lot !! But it really helped having the scans to count down too rather than a huge amount of time to wait xxx

 

[Cookie84]

I`m the same I find it less stressful knowing I have a scan coming up to check everything. It weirdly makes me feel more in control although at the same time I feel a bit out of control!well I've booked one for this weekend. I`m hoping I'll calm down once I can feel it moving. Thankyou Millie, you've made me feel I`m not alone! Anyone else felt like this?! If so does it get better?