Feeling kind of Blergh!

[HayleyB]

Hey girls!!
Have been on an emotional rollercoaster the last week...
Really don't know where to put myself at the moment. Did my pee in the cup for the doctors this morning, I also did 2 of the pregnancy tests from the same sample and they were both BFN's... not even a faintest of faint of faint lines... My temp on my chart is going down and down.
Am really not holding out much hope at the moment...

So i turned to the online tarot cards (lotustarot.com) as theres no-one around to do a real reading for me.... heres' what i got... (so so true!)

how you feel about yourself now (The Magician)
You feel a sense of purpose and the willpower to get things done. Self-empowerment is the key word here. Any new enterprises in love or career show great potential. You feel that you have the ability to think on your feet and, faced with opposition, the appearance of The Magician is an excellent omen of success. Time to believe in your self and go for it!

what you most want at this moment (The Empress)
The cards suggest Hayley, that at this time you desire comfort, security and happiness and may well need some emotional support and reassurance. (If you are considering having a baby the desire will be very strong at this time, or perhaps you are already pregnant and you have some concerns. If male, perhaps you are considering fatherhood with someone but have concerns.) Things will turn out fine, just know that you are loved and that there are people around you who care.

your fears (Wheel Of Fortune)
You are in fear of everything turning for the worse for you, perhaps you are experiencing a run of bad luck. You have to trust that most of what we fear never happens and as The Wheel of Fortune turns downwards against you, the wheel will naturally turn upwards again and bring good fortune to you too. This difficult phase will pass.

what is going for you (The World)
Success, fulfillment and conclusion are near at hand - the successful outcome to a venture, satisfaction in a relationship and efforts rewarded. It is a culmination of events and indicates material wealth and greater spiritual awareness. You may choose to buy that dream house or a wonderfully fulfilling relationship is on offer, enjoy!

what is going against you (Temperance)
Life will seem hectic and full of challenges and you will find it hard to have the right perspective on things. You may have a rival in love or at work, and if so, question whether that person or situation is really right for you. This is a time for being calm and patient and life will soon have a sense of normality again.

outcome (Death)
This is a transformational time for you. However turbulent or perhaps distressing some of the events in your life may be, endings always leave room for brand new beginnings. This is a fresh start in life for you, embrace it and live every day as though it was your last, life is for living!





I'm really sorry that i'm feeling negative right now, i should really wait for the results to get back from the doctors, but just all blergh and all over the place at the moment!!

xox

 

[Rosieroo]

Hon I'm sorry things aren't easy at the moment. Can't understand why so many probs with tests , hope your sample for docs comes back with some good news

 

Hi hun sorry you're feeling so rubbish, my reading was spot in fo rme too, especially this bit...

what you most want at this moment (The Moon)

The cards suggest Sami, that what you most want at this time is some clarity and less of these confused emotions that leave you fearful and vulnerable. You want to know the outcome, because you are so unsure about how you feel. Use your intuition to guide you away from any deception and ride this out - it will turn out alright in the end. The Moon is a good omen if you are in a clandestine affair.

I hope you get some answers soon xxx

 

[HayleyB]

Thanks Sami! Sounds like the moon will guide you!!!!

Thanks for your hugs Kina! i really don't know whats going on.... but i think if my chart had a coverline, i'd be gradually heading to falling below it
I have no idea!!!

xox

 

[Andrianne]

I'm sorry you're not feeling so well HayleyB. When are the results coming out? You will know soon

I'm confused with a part of your story though, why did docs tell you won't be able to conceive again? What was the reason for that? I don't remember sorry

Hope everything turns out OK. You're young and the future is out there for you. You deserve a baby (as everyone else who's trying) and you'll go on to have one, I'm sure of it

(((hugs)))

xxx

ps thx for replying to my other post

 

[HayleyB]

They're not really sure whats going on at the moment (am waiting for an ultrasound for them to try and see more)
The blood tests that they've done are showing that i'm not ovulating & if i am i'm not ovulating properly (he did explain but i didn't understand properly) So if i do get pregnant its quite likely to result in recurring mc.

He said that after the scan they may need to do investigative surgery etc, but i wasn't so keen on hearing about that!!

At the moment he's put it down to polycystic overies, but my bloods came back normal with no sign of pcos.

Results for the doctors preg test should be back tomorrow or friday!

xox

 

[Andrianne]

Thanks for explaining a bit. It's not an easy road to try and find out what's wrong with our bodies if conception is difficult. Fortunately you won't have to investigate much more

Fingers crossed about doc's test results

xxx

 

[HayleyB]

Thanks Chick!!
Starting to feel a bit better now, just trying not to think about it!!

xox

 

[sophie]

fingers crossed with results xx

 

[HayleyB]

Thanks Sophie!!
All hugs fully appreciated!!
DH is at work, he nipped home for 10 mins before, and didn't give me a hug
Just keep cuddling the dog!! Poor pooch!!!

xox

 

[Layla]

fingers crossed for you hun

xx

 

[Wobbles]

Thinking positive for Hayley

 

[HayleyB]

Thanks Wobbles & Layla!!!
All positivity and hugs are appreciated!!
Gonna ring the doctors in the morning to see if the results are back, if not will be Friday!

xox

 

[*saulino*]

Hi

Hun good luck with everything.
xx Katrina

 

[HayleyB]

Have had bad cramps this evening, was walking the pooch (the crazy looking one in my av!!) with DH and just got a really bad stabbing pain type cramp. Made me want to cry, and have had minor cramps all evening!!
Am only on CD 19 so AF would still be at least 16 days away.... stay away AF!!!

just trying to stay positive, sorry for posting this, but i really needed to get it off my chest... i got an "are you ok?" off of Graham when i was doubled over... and lulu (pooch) looked at me with her big pupster eyes... but he's not mentioned it since!

Love to all anyways, am off to bed now!!

xox

 

[Tam]

Hope you feel better soon babe!

Sending you lots of positive vibes, baby dust, baby glue and good luck!



xx

 

[HayleyB]

Thanks Tam!
Can't sleep tonight (again!)
Having bad tummy pains and keep feeling like i'm bleeding! Although thats probably more paranoia making me feel like that!!!

xox

 

[Jayceesmumma]

Hey honey how u feeling today? Got doc results back ??

 

[HayleyB]

Haven't rang them yet.... too scared its BFN!!!

 

[Emma22]

any news Hayley? hope your feeling better today x