Oh hun, I'm so sorry.
I like Dyscochick, lost at end of three mths , my baby had no HB at 11 plus 5 scan, and I also coped by talking about it, first on here, then the more I talked about it, the easier to say those words became, I couldn't use the word died tho as in public that set me off, so I just used gone, or no HB etc , and talking really did help. Pregnancy forum became my daily theraphy as I had been on here every day before that , and didn't want to give up my girls.
I truely started to feel better when I started trying again as it gave me something to get stuck into again.
Hugs to you XX