I know that sounds awful, I had a mmc in Nov 2010, followed by an ectopic in May 2011 and then a miscarriage in Sep 2011, I'm now 9w+2 by my scan last monday (or 9w+6 by my LMP) but i really want the first 12 weeks done and dusted so i can start enjoying my pregnancy and building a bond with baby. My mmc was at 11w+3 we had the slightest bleed ever (and i mean slight) and my dh wanted me to be checked out (me thinking nothing of it or that i might be spotting etc didn't want to waste the time of the staff in A&E, but thats where we ended up) the staff then booked me for an emergency early scan the next day where baby was as clear as anything on the screen, but had no heart beat, after 2 1/2 weeks of torture, i finally miscarried (i had the option to have a d&c but i wanted it to happen naturally). we finally plucked up the courage to try again and had a bleed at 6w, we were sent for an early scan but nothing was visable, we had bloods and went back 48 hrs later for more bloods (they were rising) after 2 more scans + an internal scan which showed nothing and several more blood tests, i was sent for an exploratopry laperoscope at 9w and they found an ectopic pregnancy on my right tube and removed the baby and part of my tube. In september we then had another BFP, then to start bleeding the following day, this time i only needed the one scan as it was confirmed i had lost the baby. Well we got another BFP on 31/12/11 and i have been petrified since that i may lose the baby, I've had 3 early scans (the 1st they saw nothing and thought i might be ectopic again, the second baby was in the right place and strong hb and the third was because i had a bleed, baby still in the right place with a strong hb) but i still just want to get past the 12 week mark!