Ryan's dad left me when i was 8 months pregnant and made no effort at all to attend scans, the birth, visit in hospital, help with ryan as i had a c-section. He would see him for less than an hour a week. I had enough and he didnt see him for a month then he said sorry blah blah blah and he started seing him again but kept letting him down all the time etc so again on the 3rd july i said enough was enough and ive had the odd abusive text from him and a few from his girlfriend but other than that nothing for the last 4 months. So yesterday i sent him a pic of ryan in his devil outfit just so he could see how bigs hes got, and he said 'what in the fuck are you dressing him in?' i said hes a devil, ure mum bought it and he said lol i miss him. and i said well it has been 4 months!!! and he said what can i get him for xmas?? and i said all he wants is a dad in his life! and i havent heard anything since, surely if he missed him he would ask to see him?!!?!? he lives less than a mile away!!!!! Why do i care??? he hasnt cared about him for 4 months and i know dam well if he says can i see him then i will say sure come over and i shouldnt be like that!! he has given me soooo MUCH CRAP over the last year, me and ryan dont deserve it, He doesnt care so why should i?