AcrylicAbi
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It's taken me nearly a week to bring myself to write on here. Last Thursday I found out my 7wk baby's heart beat was gone. As horrific as that is, I'm really struggling with the fact my body hasn't recognise the fact the baby is dead. Apart from some mild cramps, I've had nothing. No bleed, no spotting, nothing. Now I have to make the horrible decision whether next week I have the pills or whether I have D&C. How do I make a decision that was always my nightmare?
I'm really struggling. I'll appear okay and start to believe I am. Then I see a baby or see something baby related and it starts me off again.
I have a scan picture and decided to place it in a box with a teddy bear that my fiancé got me for Valentine's Day and bury it with my grandma and great grandparents as its then somewhere I have to grieve.
How do you get over or accept that you're never going to meet your baby, hold your baby, feel your baby or look in to its beautiful eyes? :'(
I'm really struggling. I'll appear okay and start to believe I am. Then I see a baby or see something baby related and it starts me off again.
I have a scan picture and decided to place it in a box with a teddy bear that my fiancé got me for Valentine's Day and bury it with my grandma and great grandparents as its then somewhere I have to grieve.
How do you get over or accept that you're never going to meet your baby, hold your baby, feel your baby or look in to its beautiful eyes? :'(