Loving Them? I hate Jon. I think he's a selfish arsehole and I resen him for making mine and Evie's life so hard. I resent him for blowing hot and cold with me and I cant work out how he is the same man I had a baby with. BUT I still love him moe than anyone else. I think about him everyday and if anything was to happen to him I'd be devastated. I dont want to feel like this- I want to be able to remove him from my life like he removed me and Evie from his. How long is it going to take?