Whats wrong with me??!?

Discussion in 'Coping with Miscarriage & Loss' started by Lou1103, Jul 9, 2013.

  1. Lou1103

    Lou1103 Well-Known Member

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    I am a bitter and angry mess. I feel like miss havisham but related to miscarriages. Im WTT which makes it worse but in the last 12 HOURS (yes only 12) i have seen 2 pregnancy announcements and a birth annoucement!!!! I wasnt angry about the first
    In the slightest as she is a friend and has had miscarriages but the others have really p'd me off! Literally feel winded, like someone has punched me in the stomach.

    And zara phillips as well (and kate) I like how all of these people have the confidence to share their pregnancies quite early as they know nothing will go wrong! Not that i want it to of course, but if i do get pregnant again i will be so scared of miscarriages, i wont share my joy until i have to (i.e its obvious from looking at me) but it seems all these people will have a lovely baby at the end of it.

    Sorry i had to vent, dont know where all of that came from!! Xxx
     
  2. lisey

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    Its perfectly natural to feel everything you are feeling. With my first mc, my very best friend, who I love like a sister, fell pregnant literally a few weeks after my mc, I was happy for her but devestated for me and I avoided her for a few months, the scan pics on fb felt like a stab in the heart cos I knew we wld have only been a month apart. Try not to be hard on yourself, anger and bitterness are very normal and it will ease in time. Huge hugs and we are always here for you to vent to xx
     
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  3. Vickilou25

    Vickilou25 Well-Known Member

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    It is hard but one day there will be people thinking exactly the same things as we are now, when they see our bumps / scan pics / new baby pics xxx
     
  4. Lou1103

    Lou1103 Well-Known Member

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    I think after this feeling, i will be really sensitive about facebook broadcasts and things xxx
     
  5. CARNAT22

    CARNAT22 Well-Known Member

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    Lou,

    It will feel like literally everywhere you turn there are pregnant women because you are hyper sensitive to it.

    I had two lifelong friends announce pregnancies around time I fell with my first pregnancy. Friends were due 23rd Dec, 31st Dec and my little baby would have been due 4th Jan.

    It was a kick in the teeth to watch their pregnancies bloom and to add insult to injury I suffered another 2 miscarriages whilst they carried healthy boys to term.

    It doesn't feel like there is any light at the end of the tunnel now but there is.

    You just have to accept days like this will crop up from time to time and you have to be strong

    xxxxxxxx
     
  6. VickyClare

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    Hi Lou,

    I feel exactly the same. I gave birth to our beautiful baby girl Rebecca Marie (on 7th May) at 23.2 weeks after a bad urine/womb infection caused me to go into labour.

    I don't even want to leave the house. Everywhere I look all I can see are pregnant women (some who have babies too) it hurts so much. I feel abnormal. I'll be 38 in October and have had 3 mcs before Becky so I also feel that I'm running out of time (no children as yet)

    I can't believe how cruel life is. It does seem that all these celebrities have trouble free pregnancies.... and its always so in your face!

    I know one day it will happen for us (all). I miss my baby bump as I was really starting to show and I had never felt so proud of myself or my body so much before. To have that taken away is the worst pain ever.

    I'll be thinking of you Lou. I hope that your pain eases in time and that you'll get your BFP before too long (as I hope I will too).

    Take care and try to keep strong.

    Love 'n' hugs,'Vicky x x
     

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