I dont even know where to start!
I got signed off from work on Monday for 2 weeks (due to stress at work & SPD) which takes me into my holiday and then maternity leave which means Im now 33+5 and dont work! I drove home as quickly as possible on Monday and collapsed into the sofa For all of 5 minutes! I was then up and about cleaning, tidying etc.
Ive been like it for about 5 weeks but nowhere near the extreme Im at now! When my mum & step dad went on holiday a couple of weeks ago, I cleaned the house from top to bottom to busy myself (also because I have a weird craving for cleaning products the smell ladies! Not the taste lol!) Thats where it all started!
In all seriousness though, Im a bit worried because A) I am supposed to be resting because of SPD and B) its become obsessive
There are quite a few problems though;
- Despite the fact that when my pelvis clicks and aches and the shooting pains, Im thinking nope, ignore it, carry on and I just cant relax unless Im cleaning.
- My Mum is worried because as soon as she gets home I say were out of air freshener, bleach, glass spray, cloths, Daz, washing up liquid, dishwasher tablets etc Im using WAY too much stuff and its costing a lot of money to keep replacing it.
- Im finding myself not trusting the dishwasher and thinking I can clean the stuff better myself so Im doing so much washing up its unreal.
- I wait around for washing to end so I can put another load on (and Im washing maybe 2 tea towels that were only put up clean yesterday!). When I hang the washing on the airer, I go downstairs constantly to see if any of it is dry so I can iron it.
- When my Mum goes downstairs to do the packed lunches I follow her and will make a tea or do something so it looks like Ive gone down to do something when really Im going down to watch her and make sure she puts everything in the right place.
- As soon as everyone gets home from work Im on tenterhooks waiting to see if they put their coat and shoes away in the cupboard.
- I took EVERYTHING out of the cupboards yesterday and rearranged everything and cleaned all the cupboards out, I clean the surfaces religiously and my step Dad keeps using a spoon to make tea and not putting it in the dishwasher, hes putting it in the sink which not only upsets me (I know, Im being silly but I cant help!) but its also stressing me out!
- We live in a 3-storey house and because I want to hoover every day, I cant carry the hoover backwards and forwards so as soon as the first person comes home I ask them to take it up/down for me.
Its making everyone in my house really uncomfortable
Its become like OCD or something I set my alarm in the mornings so Im downstairs when everyone leaves so that no cups or plates are left out Argh its sooooo bad!
Ive just mopped the kitchen floor and have been down twice already to see if the floor is dry yet as I have dark washing to put on xx
I got signed off from work on Monday for 2 weeks (due to stress at work & SPD) which takes me into my holiday and then maternity leave which means Im now 33+5 and dont work! I drove home as quickly as possible on Monday and collapsed into the sofa For all of 5 minutes! I was then up and about cleaning, tidying etc.
Ive been like it for about 5 weeks but nowhere near the extreme Im at now! When my mum & step dad went on holiday a couple of weeks ago, I cleaned the house from top to bottom to busy myself (also because I have a weird craving for cleaning products the smell ladies! Not the taste lol!) Thats where it all started!
In all seriousness though, Im a bit worried because A) I am supposed to be resting because of SPD and B) its become obsessive
There are quite a few problems though;
- Despite the fact that when my pelvis clicks and aches and the shooting pains, Im thinking nope, ignore it, carry on and I just cant relax unless Im cleaning.
- My Mum is worried because as soon as she gets home I say were out of air freshener, bleach, glass spray, cloths, Daz, washing up liquid, dishwasher tablets etc Im using WAY too much stuff and its costing a lot of money to keep replacing it.
- Im finding myself not trusting the dishwasher and thinking I can clean the stuff better myself so Im doing so much washing up its unreal.
- I wait around for washing to end so I can put another load on (and Im washing maybe 2 tea towels that were only put up clean yesterday!). When I hang the washing on the airer, I go downstairs constantly to see if any of it is dry so I can iron it.
- When my Mum goes downstairs to do the packed lunches I follow her and will make a tea or do something so it looks like Ive gone down to do something when really Im going down to watch her and make sure she puts everything in the right place.
- As soon as everyone gets home from work Im on tenterhooks waiting to see if they put their coat and shoes away in the cupboard.
- I took EVERYTHING out of the cupboards yesterday and rearranged everything and cleaned all the cupboards out, I clean the surfaces religiously and my step Dad keeps using a spoon to make tea and not putting it in the dishwasher, hes putting it in the sink which not only upsets me (I know, Im being silly but I cant help!) but its also stressing me out!
- We live in a 3-storey house and because I want to hoover every day, I cant carry the hoover backwards and forwards so as soon as the first person comes home I ask them to take it up/down for me.
Its making everyone in my house really uncomfortable
Its become like OCD or something I set my alarm in the mornings so Im downstairs when everyone leaves so that no cups or plates are left out Argh its sooooo bad!
Ive just mopped the kitchen floor and have been down twice already to see if the floor is dry yet as I have dark washing to put on xx