thought i was doing ok untill now..

[Zoe S]

i thought i was starting to feel ok even though it has only been 2 weeks since i found out about my mmc, i had started to feel normal again went on a couple of days out with my hubby started socialising properly again. My hubby just left to go back to deployment a few hours ago and now in struggling again, i'm in bits and i know some of this is him leaving because i have done previous deployments but this is heart wrenching. He's gone till November and this time i don't even have the comfort of knowing i have a piece of him with me! Just feeling so lonely and empty :'( x

 

[coz78]

I'm so sorry he had to leave you again. Nothing I say will make today any easier but my thoughts are with you. Xx

 

[Zoe S]

thanks coz just feel like im back to square one again and have to build myself up again, hate how hard this is :'( xx

 

[coz78]

I know it's hard but take it one day at a time. You've got a lot to deal with right now. Have you still got family with you?

 

[Zoe S]

no on my own have friends around but just not the same just want the tears to stop atm when i think om composed something sets me off again probably doesn't help most my friends are pregnant or have just had babies stopped going on social network sites as cant bear to see all the baby gaga posts and baby pics i feel awful just cant understand how one minute that was me and the next minute all that hope has been taken away :'(

 

[coz78]

For today, just let the tears fall. You have tomorrow and the next day to try and be strong. You already found the strength to start building yourself up once and you can do it again. There's no rush right now. X

 

[Zoe S]

Thank you coz I decided to pick myself up off te sofa take myself to boot camp this evening and I'm feeling so much better everyone there knows my situation and were really good even if I didn't do the whole session. it was the pick me up I needed one thing keeps me sane! Xx

 

[coz78]

Whatever it takes. Good call on the boot camp though, good for mind and body. x

 

[Zoe S]

Yeah b-ft is brilliant got my endorphins flowing and had lots of support couldn't have asked for better combo today but thank you your comments they have helped me so much today xx

 

[coz78]

Anytime xx

 

[Lilmisshopeful]

Sorry for your loss. I'm in a similar position as you. My oh is also in the forces and on compassionate leave till the end of the month. He is only away a few days at a time but we lost twins 2 years ago in the middle of a deployment and it was so hard when he had to go back. I just kept myself busy and did anything I could to help pass the time. Things will get easier each day xxx

 

[Zoe S]

Just so hard but feeling so much more positive today and we were naughty and had unprotected while he was here I must be quite lucky as I did pregnancy test and lost my HCG levels quite early and I ovulated a week after Mc with being so emotional again yesterday irrationally not sure if may have caught oops! But will be wait or AF to find out! Your lucky he got compassionate leave were you quite far along if you don't mind me asking? Dan just got his RnR moved forward and now I'm looking a 3 and half month stretch till he s home xxx

 

[Lilmisshopeful]

Glad your feeling better today. They have been pretty good with him. I'm 15 weeks 3 days today but found out Friday baby had died so I'm in hospital now. They are putting me to sleep to remove baby and all other contents. Not sure we will try again don't think I can cope with it again. Keep yourself busy time will fly by xxx

 

[Zoe S]

Oh Hunni that's got to be horrible thinking of you and hope everything goes ok today even in such a terrible situation xx It must be hard to keep positive Hun but I'm a big believer in hope and with it things seem brighter I'm determined to start again I will probably never give up but everyone's different xxx

 

[coz78]

Glad you're having a better day today. x

 

[Zoe S]

Yeah me too coz moods are slightly irratic but hopefully get there soon thank you again for being so good with me yesterday did help me a lot xx

 

[coz78]

That's ok, glad I could help. It will get better, you're already on your way x