Wasn't sure where to put this post as I'm in first trimester and also know so many on the new mums board, so I pasted it into both. Mark has told me he doesn't want the baby. He wants Damien to have more time to himself and doesn't think he could have another baby now. I, on the other hand, think it would be great to have a baby close to Damien. Hard work yes, but worth it. I just don't think I could have an abortion, I really couldn't do it. Emotionally it would ruin me. But I think if I don't I stand to lose Mark. I asked him if he would be upset if I couldn't do it, and he said he didn't know. I haven't even been to the docs yet and had the pregnancy confirmed. I'm not sure if I want to book in with my midwife and then change my mind a week later. I know you can't really help me, I just needed to tell someone and get it off my chest. My head and my heart are very torn right now and I'm not sure what will happen. I wish I'd never been put in this position again, not that I have anyone to blamed but myself.