Beckyb1991
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I've been with my partner for 5 years ,When I was 19 I was on the implant and started feeling really sick and my boobs were tender and always tired , my doctor said it was side effects from the implant and it was impossible to be pregnant on the implant ... After a week or so I went back feeling so poorly and again she said it was the side effect from the implant - didn't test me or anything! ... That night I fainted as I was going down the stairs and obviously fell down the stairs braking my arm and hitting my head on a radiator. Next thing I know I'm being taken to hospital .... At the hospital they asked me if I thought there was anything wrong and I explained how I'd been feeling ... They agreed to give me a pregnancy test with of course was possitive. Of course I was in shock and couldn't understand how it could happen as I was told it was impossible. They sent me for a scan which showed my 7 week ish baby with no heartbeat. I know it sounds bad but I couldn't feel bad, I felt numb , still in shock ... Only a few weeks later it hit me badly which ended in me and my partner splitting for a month. After this incident I had the implant taken out.
Last year me and my partner had moved to a new flat , we were really happy and settles , I didn't even notice at first that I was late on my period and we'd been really safe even though I desperatly wanted a baby. One night we were laying in bed and I was on my tablet doing some work and it occurred to me I hadn't had my period.... In pure shock I fumbled with my tablet mumbling to my partner that I thought I was pregnant ... Eventually I got on my period tracker app which said I was 3 weeks late for my period. I was sure it was wrong but still ran to the shop to buy 3 pg tests! ALL positive ... I was over the mood , the o/h was abit shocked and didn't know what to say but I didn't care... We decided to keep it a secret until we'd seen the doctor and worked out our dates but then the next night the bleeding started .... Heavily and clotted. I was inconsolable ... My o/H came home from work to find me on the bathroom floor blood all down my legs and sat in blood and blood all over my hands , I was as pale as a ghost and unresponsive (I don't remember any of this) ... He called my mum who called an ambulance and we went to hospital who confimed I was having a miscarrage , they kept me in and I had to do all my wee's and pass all the clots into a paper tray. I was devastated and blamed myself for getting too excited.... For wanting it too much.
The way I see it I am a mummy , without a baby ... But with 2 angels in the sky. I'm happy that we're ttc but I'm so anxious at the same time. I don't want to go through that again . So please everyone send me lots of that baby dust... As sticky as you can xxxxx
Last year me and my partner had moved to a new flat , we were really happy and settles , I didn't even notice at first that I was late on my period and we'd been really safe even though I desperatly wanted a baby. One night we were laying in bed and I was on my tablet doing some work and it occurred to me I hadn't had my period.... In pure shock I fumbled with my tablet mumbling to my partner that I thought I was pregnant ... Eventually I got on my period tracker app which said I was 3 weeks late for my period. I was sure it was wrong but still ran to the shop to buy 3 pg tests! ALL positive ... I was over the mood , the o/h was abit shocked and didn't know what to say but I didn't care... We decided to keep it a secret until we'd seen the doctor and worked out our dates but then the next night the bleeding started .... Heavily and clotted. I was inconsolable ... My o/H came home from work to find me on the bathroom floor blood all down my legs and sat in blood and blood all over my hands , I was as pale as a ghost and unresponsive (I don't remember any of this) ... He called my mum who called an ambulance and we went to hospital who confimed I was having a miscarrage , they kept me in and I had to do all my wee's and pass all the clots into a paper tray. I was devastated and blamed myself for getting too excited.... For wanting it too much.
The way I see it I am a mummy , without a baby ... But with 2 angels in the sky. I'm happy that we're ttc but I'm so anxious at the same time. I don't want to go through that again . So please everyone send me lots of that baby dust... As sticky as you can xxxxx