I've taken a little time out of TTC, because for want of a better expression, it's been really fucking hard. Long story short: we've been trying since December/January (had danger pokes in December and then actually started legit trying in January). I was still breastfeeding my son during my Dec, Jan, Feb and most of my March cycles - I stopped nursing on Good Friday. From tracking my cycles I think I've got a luteal phase defect (LPD), averaging 9-10 days, so I thought stopping the breastfeeding would help. We didn't try at all in April, I was all over the shop with my hormones and emotions - though my LP did increase to 13 days! So we started again from this month and we tried a more laid back approach, no temping, no OPK's etc but I nearly missed my OV window as I wasn't keeping a close eye on my dates! Then, on top of everything else I realised I was actually ovulating a whole week later when I had a huge gush of EWCM when I was out one day. We managed to DTD on the day of my positive OPK (which turned out to be CD27) and the day after, but I'm getting some spotting today at 11dpo which means I'm out... Again. I really didn't prepare myself for the long TTC game as I fell so quickly with my DD and DS. I don't want to be consumed and obsessed with TTC but it takes over so much of thinking that I can't help it. I've started taking Agnus Castus/Vitex today and B Complex to hopefully help the luteal phase and I guess I can only hope and just keep trying. From reading on the subject of breastfeeding related LPD's, I just need to give my body time. AC worked for me when conceiving my daughter, so here's hoping. Just writing this all down really to try and get it out of my head, but if anyone has any similar experiences, it would be great to hear.