Hi I'm looking for advice/reassurance etc... I had a double episiotomy when having my lo. We have dtd 4 times since then I think. Anyways things just haven't been the same. I think I feel different, and I certainly look different (tmi) I feel like I haven't been stitched enough where I was cut but the midwifes said it was fine. A nurse at my gps said my pelvic floor was loose. So I feel extremely paranoid about myself and also sex is still sore 4 months on. I don't know how to overcome this. My husband doesn't have a massive sex drive anyways but it is starting to bother both him and I. I miss being close and intimate but I'm just so nervous and paranoid all the time. It isn't helping my confidence at all feeling this way; that things just aren't "right" but what can I do? All the professionals have told me things are more or less normal. How can I get my sex life back on track when I feel so paranoid? My husband and I had a frank discussion and he feels sex has become boring as I will only do certain positions now, but I just tried to initiate things and he turned me down which makes me believe even more there is something wrong down below. I finally get my confidence up and he turns me down things must be really bad Sorry I don't know what I'm really asking, just need to write it down.