I know this is going to sound really bad but its the way I feel and I cant help it. Im 7 weeks pregnant with my first child and Ive been researching the whole process from beginning to end. I find the whole thing very frightening and quite frankly ....revolting. How anyone could be overjoyed at being hugely fat and a world of pain and gore waiting for them before the ugliness is finishes is beyond me. Im 31 by the way so Im not some scared teenager. This is a surprise pregnancy but Im old enought to cope so thats no biggie. But in all honesty, I dont find one thing natrual about being sick or hungry or bloated. heres my question, am I a complete freak? Am I going to be a bad mother because I feel so ambivilent about it? If anyone tries stroking my bump, I will flatten them. Its things like this that normal women seem to enjoy that make me cringe and wear loose tops. Thanks in advance.