Roll on July! In a way!

[Keeponhoping]

Well I'm counting down the days until we can try to conceive again. Had a pregnancy of unknown location and treated with methotrexate in April to kill the baby, one of the hardest things I've ever been through, waiting for a potential time bomb to go off in my body. Has been a very emotional and physical rollercoaster. Nothing could ever be found on the scan each time i was scanned but hcg showed I was pregnant, don't know why I have been so upset over something I've never seen but it was that positive test that gave me hope that all would be OK and baby would be finally found! I was told unfortunately it was bad luck and have to keep telling myself it was not meant to be. I will always wonder where the baby was. I am longing to be able to try again but at the same time so scared this will happen again. Time will tell I suppose!

 

[MissCharli]

I am really sorry to hear that, that must have been really horrible. I think we are all scared of getting pregnant next time, but the odds are in our favour of having a healthy pregnancy

 

[Keeponhoping]

Thanks misscharli, I hope you're right! Got to try and be positive I suppose. X x

 

[BunnyN]

I have been through two heart breaking losses but I think your situation must be even harder in a lot of ways. Usually losses are out of our hands. Being forced to make choices about what to do, even when there isnt really much lf a choice must be awful. I hope July is your month. Hugs.

 

[Keeponhoping]

Thanks bunny, and I'm really sorry to hear of your losses too and wish you all the luck! And hope we all get the happy ending we're all looking for. X x

 

[BunnyN]

I have two LOs and am 13 weeks pregnant now so I have a lot to be thankful for. Loss is always hard but I think going through it before you have other children is hard in its own way.

 

[MissCharli]

Yeah it is definitely different, I mean what am I now? I can't be a mother because I never got that far but I'm not who I was before. All we can hope is that next time it sticks I guess.

 

[BunnyN]

I think you are a mother already. It might not be in quite the same way as some people think but you become a mother as soon as you see that pink line.

 

[MissCharli]

Yeah I think a lot of people do, but I don't feel like one