I am going to be totally honest, now the weeks are coming closer to my due date 28/01, I am getting extremely nervous and frightened. I really do not think I am going to cope with all the pain, I mean an internal hurts me let alone a baby trying to come out there. As you are all aware, that's me off work now (due to the disastrous leg injury) I have been sitting watching Discovery Health all day all about midwives, maternity wards etc, and to see grown women scream in agony freaks me out. I shouldn't watch it, but I am glued. I am 22 and old enough, but I feel like a little girl again when I think about it. The epidural looks agony and I think I would pass out. I know everyone is nervous but I have been crying to my mum ( I still need my mum, and I am going to be one soon, ironic!) and I take panic attacks everytime I think about it. I am excited about being a mum, but feel very needy and vulnerable as I don't know what to expect. Apart from severe pain!