Hello, I admit I'm %50 to blame here. I knew his views on abortion. We have only been together 2 months & I found out last weekend (7/9/05) that I was pregnant- I took 4 pregnancy tests in a week & the all showed up positive in seconds- "he" was there of course. We fell in love so fast- we were both in very long relationships- I'm 24, he's 25. As the story goes, he thinks we should wait until we both are ready for baby...I am, he is for an abortion ASAP! I keep procrastinating. We ddn't need a hpt to know I was pg, we both knew it. I feel it is a beautifull experience even though my nipples kill me, I have strange cravings, I'm always tired, and feel nausea 24/7- It is life! He didn't want to face that at first, he is scared- even more so than I am, maybe b/c I'm a female. He never was crazy about kids. In fact one of his last g/f before me left him b/c she wanted babies so she went back to her horrible ex-hisband. That hurt his pride & he doesn't want to ose me. But he is manipulative: telling me if I have the abortion we will elope, work on our careers first than in 5 years have a kid...I can't wait that long & I dont want to have an abortion- but, I blame myself b/c I knew his view point & ignored it so I got myself into this mess. He says if I keep it he will not leave me, but we will not last as a couple. I will be a single paent & the kid will not have a father (only someone who sends a check in every month. I brought up adoption (to save the baby's life). Then he gets possessive- The baby is mine, I can't watch you carry our baby for nine months then give it to some starngers. Part of him wants it, but he's worried what his family & friends would think more than life he created. We both have cried, especially when I tell him to say good-bye to the baby- he puts his head to my belly & cries and then I cry. No doubt we will have a bond for life. But he constantly says he will not be there b/c he wants a career and still need to finish university. He's almost done and he gives me guilt trip threatening to drop out when he is almost done- I beg him no, then he says he needs to start making more money now! I don't want an abortion, I'm standing my ground. We are deeply in love with one another & I will not lose him as a friend, but partners for life we will never be, he has made that abundantly clear. It just breaks my heart. Should I just let him go & handle the baby on my own? I have a great support group. It's just that we feel so connected, losing him would be as bad as losing a baby. If I abort, I will lose them both- thats what my gut tells me. Thank you.