AF showed again today. On to month 19 TTC. I ended up having a huge argument with hubby today after he really pressured me to help him look for toys and clothes for his 5 nieces and nephews for Easter.,I gave in but was moody so he got in a strop with me and ignored me for some time. He can't understand why I can handle seeing my friends kids maybe once a month for 2 hours but I can't cope with all his nieces and nephews! Maybe because we are stuck in the Midlands all weekend at his mums house when we go down and the kids are there for much of time and it's hard because I feel his family judge me because we are the only married couple to have any trouble concieving and they are all Catholic and they all have loads of kids with no trouble. We're meant to be going down again next weekend I am absolutely dreading it, there's too many kids running around and screaming all the time, his family's parenting style is a bit different to how mine would be but of course that's completely up to them but it doesn't help with my misery (kids aged between 6months-6 years) and his SIL is pregnant again! she fell pregnant just 3 months after her last child was born. I can't explain to him why it hurts so much. He's normally so sensitive but he really doesn't get it on this issue at all. In the past I have usually managed to suck it up and try to keep myself in check but I am coming close to having a breakdown whenever I'm there now. I don't think there's a right answer but it's putting a huge strain on our marriage and I am worried it might break us up if we keep failing at TTC. Seeing BFN after BFN is setting my depression off badly again as well but I can't stop trying as it's keeping me going.