Just a rant really about how bitter and twisted i think i am becoming...
I watch a lot of YouTube IVF vids and everytime someone goes "OMG it's BFP!!!" in a video and everyone gets to comment - everyone else says things in capitals about how amazing it is for them to have finally done it and congratulations and all that kind of stuff.
Me on the other hand, i find myself commenting my congrats but with a negative spin like "Congrats! I hope it's sticky!" or "I hope the test looks more positive tomorrow" and i really hope that it works out for them but i feel the need to remind them that shit happens and i even find it annoying that there is no doubt in their mind that they are suddenly go from hell on earth to happy ever after.
Obviously it's a reflection that i'm 99.9% convinced it's never going to happen for me but i used to at least be 100% convinced it would work for everyone else but now i'm starting to think that everyone else is doomed too.
I think i want everyone else to feel as shitty as i do so that i can relate to someone because i am definitely on a downer at the moment
I watch a lot of YouTube IVF vids and everytime someone goes "OMG it's BFP!!!" in a video and everyone gets to comment - everyone else says things in capitals about how amazing it is for them to have finally done it and congratulations and all that kind of stuff.
Me on the other hand, i find myself commenting my congrats but with a negative spin like "Congrats! I hope it's sticky!" or "I hope the test looks more positive tomorrow" and i really hope that it works out for them but i feel the need to remind them that shit happens and i even find it annoying that there is no doubt in their mind that they are suddenly go from hell on earth to happy ever after.
Obviously it's a reflection that i'm 99.9% convinced it's never going to happen for me but i used to at least be 100% convinced it would work for everyone else but now i'm starting to think that everyone else is doomed too.
I think i want everyone else to feel as shitty as i do so that i can relate to someone because i am definitely on a downer at the moment
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