Taassh_0x
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Says it all in the title lol!! I've tried everything to get over my needle phobia and to other people I know how stupid, selfish and immature I seem; and believe me I can see where those people are coming from, but... I have suffered from a needle phobia for as long as I can remember even in primary school!! I've never really had a bad experience that has triggered it but have read it can be genetic and my Dad did have a needle phobia, but me and my dad don't speak so I can't request his advice. I've tried hypnotherapy, relaxing meditation music, hypno- CD, EMLA numbing cream, but it doesn't work. I've read up on needle phobia's and different ways to overcome the phobia but I can't really find anything else. My phobia is like 9/10, Ashamed to say my friends and family say 'Just think it's for the little one' and yes like any parent, I'd do anything for my baby and I love him to pieces already but I still can't believe that I'm going to be a mom, and I know that the baby is fine as he is healthy with his hiccups and kicks and everything. I know he could be at risk and in the end (I don't know where I found the courage) at 12 weeks when you have first scan and bloods done, I did have the blood test. But 28 weeks I couldn't find the courage and declined them shamefully, it does make me feel a disgrace and ashamed but I'd rather go through pain than have to have a needle. I did have to go in twice to have needle done at 12 weeks scan, first time I had a panic attack and burst into tears even though mom was there to hold my hand and reassure me, so was my nan. I was sent into a quiet room and a pregnant lady came to speak to me and tell me it didn't hurt at all, so I went and had it done. I don't know where I found the courage and sobbed and hugged my mom so tight why they were doing it. I just can't hold my arm out, and let them put a needle in my vein and draw out blood, it's disgusting and it felt just as bad! I could even hear the blood been drained away, but after I was so happy that I had had the needle done, it was like I had actually had the baby! Even though I felt emotional drained, so did everybody else who come with me. It's shameful that I kick up such a fuss and I'm defo embarrassed but I can't get over this phobia. I have not been told to have bloods done for 28 weeks since, midwife seemed to of forgot and I wasn't going to bring it up! However cuz I have a massive cyst, I'm pre-booked in for c-section next wednesday (I'm dreading it with the epidural) and I've got to have bloods done today to check iron levels, I know I've got to do it but it's wired in my brain not to let them do it and I wanted to know if anybody had any advice to try and help me hold my arm out for them few minutes. I couldn't even stand watching my dog have his ear drained when I was little, it made me sick for the whole day! It's disgusting that I can't do it, I know and I'm ashamed and upset of how bad I am, my poor baby. But I can't kick this phobia, it's ruining my life and I defo need to do all I can to find the courage to have the epi, cuz I'll be on my own as birthing partner not aloud in the room nor is my mom and she usually comforts me through this sort of stuff. Oh god... think I'm gonna cry!! x