Sarahjanebirdi
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Hello all,
Ive been lurking a while and reading all your posts ( you seem like a lovely bunch ) and I just thought I would post in the hope of taking to some people who understand how Im feeling.
I am 28 years old, ( soon to be 29) and my Fiancé is the same age. Weve been together for 5 years and at Christmas he proposed and I said yes. We are currently planning our wedding for August 2020.
In our 5 years together , weve been inseparable. Weve travelled the world together, he helped me get back into university and made me believe in myself and I have grown in confidence.
Last year we bought our first house together , its a 3 bed with a lovely big garden and is more of a family home than a 1st house.
He has just got a promotion in a new job and we both work full time, so we are more than financially stable. We live a very comfortable life and can afford to have what we want.
When we met, he didnt want to get married or have children. I have always wanted that family unit since I was young , and Im very maternal. It was early days though and we were only early 20s so I wasnt too worried back then. We were enjoying life care free together.
Over the years obviously things have changed. Getting the house and with him landing his dream job and climbing the career ladder- I know he is viewing things differently. The proposal was a real surprise for me, as you can imagine. I like how his mind is changing without me nagging or pressuring him.
One of our biggest strengths is communicating and we have had many in depth chats about starting a family. I would start trying tomorrow if I could because I just feel so ready. With everything we have and what we have achieved together I feel its the next step. I always said I wanted my first baby before I was 30. He feels differently. He does want to start a family , but not until after the wedding. He would like to get married, then the following year go on one last big holiday as a honeymoon and then start trying, by which point we will be 32.
I know 32 is not old by any means- but who knows how long it could take us to fall. If we wanted more than one child , I dont want the pressure to be on while the first one is still little.
I am accepting this and respecting his wishes to want to start after the wedding. I keep trying to tell myself that we are both still young, it will be good to just focus on the wedding and enjoy the house for a couple of years on our own. However- I work in a primary school and I just keep having certain months where having a baby is more overwhelming than others.
At the beginning of the year I decided to focus on getting fit and healthy and Ive lost 3 stone. I feel great, so much healthier and more energy. But Ive had a couple of bad months where whatever I do- I just cant shake the feelings I am having.
This month, my period was late ( which never happens). I didnt think anything of it, and then it dawned on me maybe something happened and I could be pregnant. When my period came I could of cried , it just made me realise just how much I want it.
Like I said, I have sat him down and spoken to him about it and he is tried to understand and be reassuring. It doesnt help that he shows me pictures of babies on his phone ( that friends have had) or he will randomally say things like what do you think of this name? Or ask questions about pregnancy etc i dont want to keep bringing it up with him, because I dont ever want him to feel pressured or nagged at- I want him to start a family when he is as ready as me. Its going to be a special time for both of us.
I just dont know how to get through the next 2 years with these urges. Sorry for such a long post- even if no one replies, sometimes its just good to write feelings down and get it all out! X
Ive been lurking a while and reading all your posts ( you seem like a lovely bunch ) and I just thought I would post in the hope of taking to some people who understand how Im feeling.
I am 28 years old, ( soon to be 29) and my Fiancé is the same age. Weve been together for 5 years and at Christmas he proposed and I said yes. We are currently planning our wedding for August 2020.
In our 5 years together , weve been inseparable. Weve travelled the world together, he helped me get back into university and made me believe in myself and I have grown in confidence.
Last year we bought our first house together , its a 3 bed with a lovely big garden and is more of a family home than a 1st house.
He has just got a promotion in a new job and we both work full time, so we are more than financially stable. We live a very comfortable life and can afford to have what we want.
When we met, he didnt want to get married or have children. I have always wanted that family unit since I was young , and Im very maternal. It was early days though and we were only early 20s so I wasnt too worried back then. We were enjoying life care free together.
Over the years obviously things have changed. Getting the house and with him landing his dream job and climbing the career ladder- I know he is viewing things differently. The proposal was a real surprise for me, as you can imagine. I like how his mind is changing without me nagging or pressuring him.
One of our biggest strengths is communicating and we have had many in depth chats about starting a family. I would start trying tomorrow if I could because I just feel so ready. With everything we have and what we have achieved together I feel its the next step. I always said I wanted my first baby before I was 30. He feels differently. He does want to start a family , but not until after the wedding. He would like to get married, then the following year go on one last big holiday as a honeymoon and then start trying, by which point we will be 32.
I know 32 is not old by any means- but who knows how long it could take us to fall. If we wanted more than one child , I dont want the pressure to be on while the first one is still little.
I am accepting this and respecting his wishes to want to start after the wedding. I keep trying to tell myself that we are both still young, it will be good to just focus on the wedding and enjoy the house for a couple of years on our own. However- I work in a primary school and I just keep having certain months where having a baby is more overwhelming than others.
At the beginning of the year I decided to focus on getting fit and healthy and Ive lost 3 stone. I feel great, so much healthier and more energy. But Ive had a couple of bad months where whatever I do- I just cant shake the feelings I am having.
This month, my period was late ( which never happens). I didnt think anything of it, and then it dawned on me maybe something happened and I could be pregnant. When my period came I could of cried , it just made me realise just how much I want it.
Like I said, I have sat him down and spoken to him about it and he is tried to understand and be reassuring. It doesnt help that he shows me pictures of babies on his phone ( that friends have had) or he will randomally say things like what do you think of this name? Or ask questions about pregnancy etc i dont want to keep bringing it up with him, because I dont ever want him to feel pressured or nagged at- I want him to start a family when he is as ready as me. Its going to be a special time for both of us.
I just dont know how to get through the next 2 years with these urges. Sorry for such a long post- even if no one replies, sometimes its just good to write feelings down and get it all out! X