Hey guys! I’m six months pregnant and am kinda starting to lose my mind. I don’t really have anybody at all to talk to in my family and I honestly have not even 1 friend. I’m 19 and this is my first pregnancy, and it happens to be with someone who is very very mean and toxic. Our relationship was realllly really physically and psychologically abusive up until I was about 3-4 months pregnant.. and things have changed for the most part other than the deep psychological abuse. He’s cheated a lot, more than I can count on two hands.. he started cheating a lot after I found out I was pregnant yet encouraged me to keep the baby due to his families culture and now his parents are freaking out and rushing us to get married.. yikes.. Before I found out he was cheating we were still having sex, after I found out he was cheating on me with a very young girl and I found out in the WORSE way possible. My 15 year old sister who is around the girls age was the one to tell me because my sister is friends with some of her friends than after I’m my sister told me I got my phone blown up by a couple girls who are all around that age.. kinda broke me into pieces because I was already 3 1/2 months I lost all drive and motivation for literally absolutely everything including sex which you guys already know you pretty much lose your sex appetite around how far along I am.. He makes me feel so bad every single day and makes me cry every single day for not wanting sex. He doesn’t even kiss me or hold me anymore because “what’s the point if you’re not gonna give it to me” I’m losing my freaking brains guys I’m so depressed that I can’t even function I barely leave the house It’s hard for my to keep up with a healthy diet. I don’t y’all to anybody at all I can’t talk to my family about any of this for obvious reasons. I don’t know what to do anymore, I feel so alone and so hopeless. I think about ending my life every single day and he just makes it so much worse because he is always yelling at me and always getting upset with me. It doesn’t sound serious but in my head and in my world.. I just want it all over. I don’t wanna talk to my nurse about these things I don’t want them to put me on medication. I desperately need help If it’s already like this now how bad is my post partum going to be.. I wish he cared about more than his self..