Ended up at OOH Doctors last night as Damien was being unlike his normal self and sick alot. The doctor thinks he has a bit of a cold, but also that he has reflux which is why he is always sick dispite the winding, infacol, etc. This means regular meds for him He also still has jaundice and the HV wants it checked out because he over 3 weeks old now and shouldn't have it anymore. Just before I was about to leave, I was looking at other peoples babies and watching them holding their heads up, playing on the floor mats, etc, and reality hit me that I won't see Damien do any of this till he is at least 3 months old. I won't see his first smile, the first time he holds his head up, the first time he does anything except be floppy and cry all the time, for months. There no chance of me getting anywhere near a rested night for months either as Damien won't even try to sleep through till babies of his corrected age will do (he'll be 12 weeks doing 6 week old things etc). I shouldn't moan as it could be alot worse, I just need to get this off my chest.