Miscarriage what does it mean, for many it's a word that they won't ever have to fathom but for some it's a word that changes your whole life. Sadly it means that your baby or babies were to precious for this world but please know that you did nothing wrong. You may not find the answers from NHS if you've lost one or two and yes it may seem cruel but sadly there just isn't enough scope to do tests on everybody. It's ok to feel angry and please don't feel guilty for wanting to move on quickly. It's ok to feel envious of others and feel that you are more deserving to be be in their shoes but you never know what battles they have faced to get their happy ending. Sometimes, the more battles in life we go through the stronger we are at the end. You can pull through anything if you put your mind to it, what other choice do you have? Unfortunately, life is not always easy to live and a life is not easy to create, but stay positive and you will create a life at the end. What I am writing is not a lecture but I needed somewhere to put my thoughts and as I'm writing this my tiny baby is sleeping inside me, sadly the only heartbeat is mine and although I am upset I am grateful that I am alive. Thank You for reading, I would like to leave you with some of my favourite quotes: "You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have" "Everyone wants happiness, no one wants pain, but you can't have a rainbow without a little rain" "Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happend"