I've been sending positive upbeat replies to messages from ladies in the early days saying 'it will get better', but the truth of it is that right now I'm feeling really miserable. It's a combiniation of things really. Not sleeping well and worrying about getting into the evil sleepless cycle that haunted the first several months of my pregnancy. Feeling worried that we will be stuck in our current tiny 2 bed with OH's 13 yo son when the baby arrives. Feeling mad at my Dad who pampers and cossets my younger sisters when I was working and paying my own rent at their age and I'm still struggling (one of them is doing an 6 month internship in Paris and getting £800 a month allowance while I have to borrow £5k from him so that we can have somewhere decent to live). Feeling like my friends aren't really there for me as I'm not the all singing all drinking girl I used to be. Stressing about not having bought any presents and having no time do so before xmas. Stressing about having a ton of stuff to do at work before Mat Leave starts and not actually doing much about it. Fretting that even though all the tests and scans have been fine, there will be something terribly wrong with my little darling. Wondering why my OH can't understand when I tell him I'm upset about something. Feeling like I have to do everything for myself and can't expect OH to do stuff or encourage me or remember anything. I just want to sleep and/or cry only I can't at work and we have both of OHs kids this weekend so I can hardly have a good cry there as the walls are so thin you can hear heavy breathing from the next room! Oh, and I'm going to see my nearly 100 yo gran with one of my sisters tomorrow and could really do without the strain of that. Okay. Rant over. For now. I'm having a bad day.