ever thought about what you'll be like after you get you BFP ?
i've already decided that i'm going to be one of the most annoying, up tight and pedantic people going.. worse than i already am!
i find it really hard to spend money on myself. i mean i brought a car (my mum's friends dad died and his wife wanted it to go to someone she knew would look after it, i got it for £300) thinking it'd stop me changing my mind about wanting to have driving lessons, a few months later when my dad moved out and needed a car i gave it to him. i regretted spending that £300 on the car from the minute i did it but felt like it was helping my mum's friend's mum.. and that i would end up having lessons. my dad said he'd give me the money for it when he had it and to be honest i know that i probably won't see the money because of the credit cards my dad likes to build up and not having the money to pay it off. he already owes me £250 and it's been about a year now and i've not got that. i go out to buy me new clothes and because i'm so fussy (i'm into vintage stuff and it's imposible to find 'cheap'!) and end up buying my boyfriend stuff instead.. i get paid on monday and after forking out ot help my mum with bills etc. as it's our first month without my dad here and money is tight i've had no money as i put £150 away savings because i know that it'll help no end to have money put away when we have a LO. i had to take £10 out while staying at my dads to get food on the ferry and i felt so guilty! when LO is here i don't think i'll actually ever spend money on myself, any spare money (after putting abit away for emergencies) will go on LO.. i need to get out of feeling guilty about spending my money on me!
i've already decided that whatever theme i go with when i have LO thati'll be making everything myself, bumper, quilt etc. all of that kind of stuff myself because i'm so pedantic. i can't wear blue and black.. black and brown or brown and blue. i actually physically cannot do it. i've even already started thinking about the fact if i want one of them grobags unless it's a plain white one it won't match anything else in the room like cot bumper etc. and it'll drive me insane!
baby clothes is another thing, i'm going to sound SO mean but there are certain types of baby clothes that i personally don't like.. like the one's with 'cute doggy' on and things like that.. i just don't like it. and i wouldn't put my baby in it
i've decided that for changing purposes etc. my LO will probably be in sleepsuits for the first 3months and not outfits, so any outfits would probably be a waste.
i've already mapped out in my mind and talked to OH about when it's acceptable during the the pregnancy to start buying clothes, pram, furniture etc and i've not even got my BFP! when i go clothes shopping and actually buy myself clothes in the back of my mind i'm thinking 'will that stretch over a bump?' when it could be another year before i even get a BFP.
god i sound REALLY mean
i'm so 'OCD' about everything i think that when LO is here i'll be a complete monster! i feel like this
when i think about it. the only 'good' thing is me needing to put money away for the LO, but even then i'm going without even when i need work clothes etc.
anybody else worrying about how they'll act when they get their BFP, or planned out EVERYTHING already when they've not had their BFP ? or is it just me.. and should i go hide in the corner because you now know how strange and scary i am.. ?
i've already decided that i'm going to be one of the most annoying, up tight and pedantic people going.. worse than i already am!
i find it really hard to spend money on myself. i mean i brought a car (my mum's friends dad died and his wife wanted it to go to someone she knew would look after it, i got it for £300) thinking it'd stop me changing my mind about wanting to have driving lessons, a few months later when my dad moved out and needed a car i gave it to him. i regretted spending that £300 on the car from the minute i did it but felt like it was helping my mum's friend's mum.. and that i would end up having lessons. my dad said he'd give me the money for it when he had it and to be honest i know that i probably won't see the money because of the credit cards my dad likes to build up and not having the money to pay it off. he already owes me £250 and it's been about a year now and i've not got that. i go out to buy me new clothes and because i'm so fussy (i'm into vintage stuff and it's imposible to find 'cheap'!) and end up buying my boyfriend stuff instead.. i get paid on monday and after forking out ot help my mum with bills etc. as it's our first month without my dad here and money is tight i've had no money as i put £150 away savings because i know that it'll help no end to have money put away when we have a LO. i had to take £10 out while staying at my dads to get food on the ferry and i felt so guilty! when LO is here i don't think i'll actually ever spend money on myself, any spare money (after putting abit away for emergencies) will go on LO.. i need to get out of feeling guilty about spending my money on me!
i've already decided that whatever theme i go with when i have LO thati'll be making everything myself, bumper, quilt etc. all of that kind of stuff myself because i'm so pedantic. i can't wear blue and black.. black and brown or brown and blue. i actually physically cannot do it. i've even already started thinking about the fact if i want one of them grobags unless it's a plain white one it won't match anything else in the room like cot bumper etc. and it'll drive me insane!
baby clothes is another thing, i'm going to sound SO mean but there are certain types of baby clothes that i personally don't like.. like the one's with 'cute doggy' on and things like that.. i just don't like it. and i wouldn't put my baby in it
i've decided that for changing purposes etc. my LO will probably be in sleepsuits for the first 3months and not outfits, so any outfits would probably be a waste.i've already mapped out in my mind and talked to OH about when it's acceptable during the the pregnancy to start buying clothes, pram, furniture etc and i've not even got my BFP! when i go clothes shopping and actually buy myself clothes in the back of my mind i'm thinking 'will that stretch over a bump?' when it could be another year before i even get a BFP.
god i sound REALLY mean
i'm so 'OCD' about everything i think that when LO is here i'll be a complete monster! i feel like this
when i think about it. the only 'good' thing is me needing to put money away for the LO, but even then i'm going without even when i need work clothes etc.anybody else worrying about how they'll act when they get their BFP, or planned out EVERYTHING already when they've not had their BFP ? or is it just me.. and should i go hide in the corner because you now know how strange and scary i am.. ?
think i'm having one of 'those days'
