Well, AF came on Sunday, and I surprised myself by not feeling too bad about it. I think as it was the first month of 'properly' trying - using ovulation sticks, etc., I had felt sure I would conceive. The BFN test 3 days before AF was due made me so depressed, and I was ratty all day and just wanted to cry. I then made the decision that I wouldn't test again until AF was late. Well, she arrived Sunday morning right on schedule, and I actually felt alright. Spoke to DH about it, and he made me feel so much better. He had been the one saying 'this is our month, it will happen really quick for us', and I was the one holding back saying 'it could take months, even years'. Funny thing was that when AF arrived, he was the one saying, 'hey, plenty of time, it will happen when it happens', and I was the one asking why I wasn't pg, and what we had done wrong! Anyway, decided not to try as hard, not even going to use ovulation sticks or chart temperature for a few months. Then yesterday, we decided to book next years holiday!!! There are 15 of us going to Ibiza in May, 8 adults and 7 kids. It is 8 months away, so I'm now sort of hoping that I don't get pg in the next 3 months so I can still go!! Isn't it funny how one weekend can make all the difference with how you feel? The travel agent was great, and she said that if I do get pg in the next couple of months so I would be too far along to travel, I can cancel and get deposit back. If I get pg in the 3 months before we go, so may not want to travel because of the risk, we can swap the holiday for one later in the year, and use the deposit on that! So you watch me get pg now I've got something to look forward to!!!