HI All, I found this forum when reading about other peoples sad losses. I have just had a horrendous experience and feel i need to write it down and let it out. I have not cried yet. Let me start by saying i am so very fortunate to have a beautiful three year old daughter so this misscariage was my second child so to speak. A couple of weeks ago i started to panic as i didn't think things were right. It was just an awful feeling. I bought a professional grade doppler and to my despair - couldn't find a heart beat. I had no pain, bleeding but I just knew something was wrong. The next day I saw a tiny streak of red blood and panicked (yes again!), so I rang my midwife who booked me into my local EPU after the weekend (it was fri). The next day i kept finding blood when I wiped and was trying to remain positive. However, on the Sun the bleeding became heavier and I felt stabbing pains. I went to my local A+E where they externally scanned me. All we could see on the screen was an empty sac. The Doctor kept saying my dates were wrong, but I knew they weren't. Strangely in my panic feeling strange a few days earlier, i had come across forums about Blighted Ovums, something of which i'd never heard of before. I went to my appointment at th EPU on the Mon where they performed an internal scan and confirmed a blighted ovum. They sent me home with a leaflet. THe next day I began bleeding heavy, then i was going through a thick pad every minute or two. I knew I needed an ambulance after I had hemmoraged after giving birth. It was pouring out of me i was in agony and terrified. Not long after I arrived I passed a huge mass of clotting the size of a brain - the doctor said it had been stuck in my cervix, hence the bleeding. Then I went dizzy and my BP dropped, I had gone into shock due to the blood loss. It was really scary. Once I was stabilized they looked and said it was all gone, a complete miscarriage. I am left feeling shocked I was totally unprepared for the whole horrific experience. The only thing i feel lucky about is not having to pass a baby. I could write for hours sorry. All my love goes out to those with similar experiences.