i have just had the worst weekend EVER, and feel the need to have a good old moan, so sorry in advance for the long post you guys. me and OH were meant to go to one of my oldest friends' wedding up in scotland this weekend. i took friday off work so we could travel really early in the morning and get there mid-day friday. thursday night OH decided to go out for a couple of hours, as he works nights and had slept all day - and couldn't sleep. he promised he would be back before midnight because of the long drive he had ahead of him. 5am friday i woke up, bed was empty and OH was not back yet. so i panicked. especially since his phone was switched off as well. by 7am i was in tears convinced he was beaten up and left for dead in some alley or something, all the worst thoughts went through my mind. then at 2.30pm he phones me, and says he's been caught drink-driving and has spent the night at the police station!!!! i was soooooo fuming and disappointed, after 5 1/2 years i thought i could trust him and then he goes and does something STUPID and totally irresponsible and out of order!!! he's never done this kind of thing before, so why NOW of all times, when he is about to become a dad???? he put me through absolute HELL, wondering if he'd been in an accident or something, i even phoned the police and hospital to make sure he hadn't been involved in an accident - and all at a time when i'm already emotionally fragile and hormonal. so we missed the wedding (i was GUTTED), and he has completely let me down. i was on the brink of packing my bags and leaving, and it will take a long time before i respect him again - he will have to work hard to earn my trust and respect again! we have had a long talk, and it was the first time i have seen him cry EVER, so obviously he is regretting it. perhaps me threatening to leave him hit home as well. i hope so. it is just so typical, our relationship had never been better and we were both just excited to become parents, and then he does THAT... he has to go to court on thursday, and i just hope he doesn't get too big a fine, because it won't be him that suffers most from that - it will be me and baby, as the money he's supposed to be saving for baby and my mat leave will have to go towards the bloody fine! (do you think if i tell the judge that maybe they'll let him "pay" by doing community service instead??) he will no doubt be banned from driving for a long time, so he's paying for me to have driving lessons now. hopefully i can pass the test before baby is born, as we will need one of us to be driving ideally. as if this wasn't enough i have been left paranoid that all the stress could have affected baby. people have lost their babies because of stress before, so now i keep thinking "what if my stress levels were too much for baby to cope with and he/she died in there?!" i haven't felt movements yet (have had some flutters last week but couldn't make out if it was wind or baby) so i haven't even got that to reassure me. i have no appointments now until my scan on the 26th, so i'll be worried until then (or until i feel movement for certain) i have decided to stop thinking about the weekend now, i can't deal with the stress, so i'll try to put it behind me before it gets me down even more. sorry for the long and depressive post - i just had to get it off my chest. if you made it to the end, thanks for reading.