It seems all my hopes and dreams of becoming a mum have been shattered again.... yesterday after 4 days of bleeding I was admitted to hospital and found out by scan that my little bean's heart had stopped beating sometime between last monday [when I saw its little heart beating on our first scan!] and now... I am now at home waiting for "nature to take its course". Of course I am absolutely beside myself and am not sure I can think about ever trying to conceive again but I also think I am still in shock as I feel just so numb, desolate, angry, scared, guilty. Why is life so cruel.