Cos I feel so angry, I am angry with my OH cos he smokes and he has low sperm motility, smoking doesnt help and was advised by fertility specialist to stop as could cause issues. He is a heavy smoker too. I feel like he is selfish and will cause ttc to take longer when we try again. It took over a year last time. This morning I felt like I didnt even want to be with him. I love him so thats ridiculous but I feel like he is causing me heartache that could be prevented. I also feel annoyed with my mum cos she hasnt really said anything to comfort me through my miscarriages, my mum is amazing and like a best friend so I know she is there for me. I think she just doesnt know what to say but I guess I just need a hug or to be told shes sorry or something. Its like I am not going through it. I am also angry with myself for feeling this way and feel like a horrible person for having these thoughts about people who mean the world to me. Is it normal to feel this way or am I just a horrible person?