I cant believe I'm here!

Discussion in 'Coping with Miscarriage & Loss' started by catswiskers, May 31, 2016.

  1. catswiskers

    catswiskers Well-Known Member

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    I had a mc in the early hours of this morning at 12 weeks 5 days along.

    when I got my bfp it wasn't a shock because we had planned for this baby, after the death of our son just over a year ago we thought a baby would be like a light at the end of a tunnel for us and our 3 kids.
    right from the start I've just had this feeling that something would go wrong.
    my husband thought I was just being paranoid after losing our son.
    I hardly had any symptoms at all but I saw the baby and its little hb at a 7 week scan so assumed everything was ok.

    yesterday morning I woke up with a sharp stabbing pain in my stomach but carried on as normal choosing to ignore it not even telling my husband.
    by the afternoon I was now lightly spotting but still kept it to myself.
    by early evening the bleeding had got much heavier and the pains were now coming in waves similar to contractions so I finally told my hubby and I went to a&e where they said I couldn't be scanned until morning so I went home.
    about an hour later I went to the loo to change my pad and the bleeding was now extremely heavy it had soaked through.
    As I stood up to get off the toilet the baby fell out onto the toilet seat and just like that the pregnancy was over.
    the grief for my son is still numbing and now this has happened.
     
  2. Aragon

    Aragon Well-Known Member

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    That sounds truly horrific. I'm so sorry hun.
    I went through a mc at 10 weeks but to get past 12 and to see the heartbeat at 7 weeks is awful.
    I hope you are at home and looking after yourself.
    Xxxx
     
  3. Emily0505

    Emily0505 Well-Known Member

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    Oh sweetheart I'm so very sorry for your loss.

    Life can be so cruel.

    XX
     
  4. PeanutButter

    PeanutButter Well-Known Member

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    So sorry to hear about your loss :( Words can never explain. Xx
     
  5. Louloubelle84

    Louloubelle84 Well-Known Member

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    So sorry to hear your tragic news. My heart goes put to you and your family. Xx
     
  6. catswiskers

    catswiskers Well-Known Member

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    thank you girls. I've shut myself off from everyone I just dont know how to cope with the grief for 2 children x
     
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    tootie Well-Known Member

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    I am so incredibly sorry for you. You do not deserve this heartache xx
     
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    I'm so sorry to hear about your loss x
     
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    Tina18 Well-Known Member

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    So so sorry to read this :-( thinking of you xxx
     
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    Clover Well-Known Member

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    Oh gosh sweetie this is so unfair, you dont deserve to be going through this agsin after Joey ,

    sending you lots of love and hugs
    Always here if you want to message hun

    xxxxxx

    Sent from my GT-I9195 using Tapatalk
     
  11. KeelyT90

    KeelyT90 Well-Known Member

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    Thoughts are with you xx
     
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    I'm so sorry Hun xxx


     
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    I'm so so sorry for you :( how horrific that you had to go through that! I'll be thinking of you xx
     

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