I think I am giving up girls ... I just dont have the energy in me anymore!! This is the first cycle where I just cant be arsed with it, peeing on sticks, hospital tests, checking CM, regular BD'ing ..... None of it!! I took an opk last night and it really pissed me off cause I didnt want to do it, the only reason I done it is that I am not having clomid scans anymore (cuts in funding) just the blood tests so I need to have a rough idea of if/when I ovulate and thats just so I can prove to the hospital that it aint frigging working!! I am 100% in the mindset that I will need to have IVF and because of that I just cant be bothered with it now, I have to wait to April to find out if I will be referred, which will make it 2 years since we started trying. And because I think I will be heading down the IVF route I know that I will be waiting months if not longer for all the referrals and waiting times before we can even start and then it may not work ... urghhhhh!!! ITS TO MUCH!!! Sorry for being such a bummer girls I just feel really numb and having to watch everyone else do the one thing I cant seem to do really bloody sucks, I dont even have the energy to cry about it anymore!!