Hello, I’m new new here. I’m 29 years old and have met a man I’ve been in a relationship with for about 9 months. He’s really amazing and has all the qualities I’ve ever looked for in a long term partner. He has mentioned multiple times how he really wants kids within the next 3-5 years. I’ve always felt an aversion to children. They make me uncomfortable and the thought of pregnancy just completely terrifies me. I really love him though and have thought that maybe by the time I’m 35 my feelings may change about wanting children. I would really love to adopt but he seems set on having his own. I have hypothyroidism and multiple food allergies, also my dad is colorblind, so I know I would pass on those genes which makes me sad. Plus with how Earth is set to start self destructing because of climate change within 9 years it’s hard for me to understand why I would want to birth another child into this messed up world when there are so many out there already who need a chance. Aside from those personal views - I AM TERRIFIED OF PREGNANCY. I’ve talked to my mom a lot recently who had 4 children to help me feel better about it but I fear so much that the level of health I finally have under control now will all be lost when a baby gets thrown into the mix. My thyroid could completely spin off track and I need a new medication. It took 10 years for me to finally get to where I am now with my health. Plus I just read that my medication was recalled because it was causing thyroid defects in pregnant mothers’ fetuses! That scares me so much that I could set up a child for complete health disaster. I’m also scared of the bodily changes that occur during pregnancy. I’m a very thin woman with what seems like a small vagina as large size tampons don’t fit. I’m terrified pregnancy will just rip me apart and ruin me. Also, I have admittedly been pregnant before with my current partner but we decided it wasn’t the right time. During those 5 weeks of pregnancy I was so uncomfortable from constipation and headaches I could barely get to work. And that was during just the first 5 weeks! I cannot imagine how uncomfortable I’ll be as more time goes on. Maybe these fears sound ridiculous and laughable but I’m 100% serious. I’m looking for any mothers out there who can help me feel less scared about this. I would hate to lose on a wonderful man because of my irrational fears. Can anyone offer some advice to help me overcome this fear?