No need to reply, just need somewhere to get my feelings out as DH does not understand. I had a c-sec two weeks ago as LO was breech after a failed attempt at turning her. I was 38 weeks and there were also concerns about get size. I'm ff my LO and always intended to but did want to try bf at least once. I did try bf in hospital and gave her the first feed but after that she would not latch on and when she did would only stay on and suckle a couple of times, get fed up nothing was coming out and give up so was advised to give her ff as she needed to eat. It turned out, after she went nearly a day of not latching to me or taking much formula, that she had swolled fluid being pulled out and was full, plus she was in the small side and struggled with sucking that she could not manage breast as it was too much effort to get anything out, so my mind was made up by LO. However now I'm feeling really guilty for not persevering with bf or expressing and somehow feel that I'm missing out on something. She is growing well and is so contended and sleeps really well but for some reason today (after going to a mummy baby lunch and being the only ff mummy) I'm racked with guilt that I've done something wrong and am a awful Mummy. Sorry for long post.