Hi ladies Just wanted to have a moan and get things off my chest no need to reply. As you all now I have suffered with Psoriatic arthritis for 4 years and was just getting better when I fell pregnant and had to give up all medication apart from some pain killers. I also am suffering from the dreading SPD. My 1st son (13 nearly 14 years old) was born at 36 weeks by emergency c-section as my waters had gone with out me feeling over a period of time. He was in SCBU for a few days as he hadn't grown properly inside me and was born weighing 5lb 5ozs. I went to the mw today and I am measuring the same as 2 weeks ago and on the growth scan 2 weeks ago baby was a little smaller than average. My arthritis and SPd is making me feel rubbish and I am in agony most of the time. I am sick of feeling crappy and tired all the time! Now I feel really worried about baby too and the fact that he might not be growing and I am going through the same as before. I feel so down and disappointed in my self and my body. I feel like my body isn't meant for pregnancy and isn't looking after my babies. I am starting to feel so resentful in my body for making me be in pain constantly and struggling to do all the things I should be doing. I am so tearful today with it all.