hi guys,
im feeling really shit at the mo, guess im just looking for some suport.
here is why...
been in hospital with discharge loss, midwifes think its a show but im not convinced, they are guessing Coby is pushing down and coz of his size and weight its made me have one, i think its way to early and want to be checked for other options but they wont. seeing my midwife again tomorrow for another check up.
also im arguing with all my family again too, it all stems back to my nan at the wedding, after what she did im not talking to her and shes not talking to me, but now my older sister has got involed so i have had her slagging me off for teh past 2 days which has resulted in her telling me to "f*ck off" coz she doesnt want to knowe me anymore.
basicly my nan has put on the water works and made out like im the nasty one, and that she didnt do half the stuff i said she did at my wedding.
then my younger sister told me what everyone was saying about me so i had it out with htem, which was wrong co it made things worse, everyone was shoutig at each other over phone/emails and text. my sister ended up going in to labour and shes not due for another 12 days. thankfuly everything is ok tho.
but the latest is, coz my little sister tol dme about the baby being born first, my older sister is fumming with me and says i didnt have a right to know beofre her etc. but if she hadnt of kicked off calling us all names, maybe she would have been told first!
im just sick of everything i do being not good enough, everything gets turnt around so its my fault, even tho i havent done anything wrong, at least i dont see that i have anyways.
sorry to go on, i know im being such a wimp, just feel like crying right now, i dont need any of this right now, just feel like i want t o hide away from everyone now, considering chaging my phone numbers and emails just to get some peace
thanks for listening to me go on
xx
im feeling really shit at the mo, guess im just looking for some suport.
here is why...
been in hospital with discharge loss, midwifes think its a show but im not convinced, they are guessing Coby is pushing down and coz of his size and weight its made me have one, i think its way to early and want to be checked for other options but they wont. seeing my midwife again tomorrow for another check up.
also im arguing with all my family again too, it all stems back to my nan at the wedding, after what she did im not talking to her and shes not talking to me, but now my older sister has got involed so i have had her slagging me off for teh past 2 days which has resulted in her telling me to "f*ck off" coz she doesnt want to knowe me anymore.
basicly my nan has put on the water works and made out like im the nasty one, and that she didnt do half the stuff i said she did at my wedding.
then my younger sister told me what everyone was saying about me so i had it out with htem, which was wrong co it made things worse, everyone was shoutig at each other over phone/emails and text. my sister ended up going in to labour and shes not due for another 12 days. thankfuly everything is ok tho.
but the latest is, coz my little sister tol dme about the baby being born first, my older sister is fumming with me and says i didnt have a right to know beofre her etc. but if she hadnt of kicked off calling us all names, maybe she would have been told first!
im just sick of everything i do being not good enough, everything gets turnt around so its my fault, even tho i havent done anything wrong, at least i dont see that i have anyways.
sorry to go on, i know im being such a wimp, just feel like crying right now, i dont need any of this right now, just feel like i want t o hide away from everyone now, considering chaging my phone numbers and emails just to get some peace
thanks for listening to me go on
xx