I feel broken. I'm stuck in this house 24/7. All I have is the 4 walls and 2 dogs for company during the day. I've made no friends since moving here. If I so much as sigh when dh says he's going away I get a lecture on how I'm not a supportive wife. I have to justify myself every time I buy anything, even if it's with my own money and I've been ok with this as I thought it was just my hubby being careful and keeping our heads above water. This is the man who limits what I spend on things related to ttc and has ruled out going to a private fertility clinic because we can't afford it. Today the bank statement for his personal account arrived (we do have a joint but we each have our own separate accounts). In the last 3 months he's spent over £900 while being away from home with nothing to show for it. He's against me getting more fertility tests done because he says we can't afford it and yet he's spent all that money with nothing to show for it. I know it sounds ridiculous but I'm feeling this is really unfair. I'm can't stop crying, feel like I've lost the plot. Feel like I'm in this alone. The statement came while he was home for lunch and he wouldn't say anything after I saw it and I know we wont talk about later because he's going to have thought up a billion excuses as to why I'm out of order for being upset. I don't know how to deal with this, how do I explain why I'm upset without it turning into an argument. Sorry for the long post and rant and I'm sorry if none of it makes sense x