Kay Kay
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I'm sorry girls but I'm having a bad day. Feel bad posting this since it's been so upbeat in here lately but I have a vent.
Pregnant friend at work finally told the rest of the office (I've known for weeks) and all the commotion around her hit me harder than I expected Thankfully noboday said 'oh we thought you'd be next' (I've had that said to me before and almost died on the spot).
Then during all this, another girl in the office announced her pregnancy! I have honestly never felt so low, it was like I had just snapped inside. Held it together until I left work but cried in the car all the way home.
I'm due AF tomoro and like clockwork I'm emotional and down the day before so I'm def out this month. It's the same thing EVERY MONTH. I really wanted to be one of those people who falls the month of their HSG but of course that's not meant to be.
I'm not sure I can do this anymore. It's just about bearable when I'm feeling ok (which is most of the time to be fair). But today was just too much. Adoption kept going through my mind today even though I had discounted this as something I could actually do.
I'm so glad we have our appt on Weds cos I need some sort of plan of action. I actually wish I could start IVF like, now. But will have to wait til April '13. I'm not even looking forward to IUI cos it has such a low success rate I'm like what's the point?
Sorry if I've put you on a downer with my whining, I'll be better once AF arrives and the whole cycle starts again and I will have hit the 2 year ttc mark. Feckin brilliant.
Hope you girls are having a better day xxxxxxxxxx
Pregnant friend at work finally told the rest of the office (I've known for weeks) and all the commotion around her hit me harder than I expected Thankfully noboday said 'oh we thought you'd be next' (I've had that said to me before and almost died on the spot).
Then during all this, another girl in the office announced her pregnancy! I have honestly never felt so low, it was like I had just snapped inside. Held it together until I left work but cried in the car all the way home.
I'm due AF tomoro and like clockwork I'm emotional and down the day before so I'm def out this month. It's the same thing EVERY MONTH. I really wanted to be one of those people who falls the month of their HSG but of course that's not meant to be.
I'm not sure I can do this anymore. It's just about bearable when I'm feeling ok (which is most of the time to be fair). But today was just too much. Adoption kept going through my mind today even though I had discounted this as something I could actually do.
I'm so glad we have our appt on Weds cos I need some sort of plan of action. I actually wish I could start IVF like, now. But will have to wait til April '13. I'm not even looking forward to IUI cos it has such a low success rate I'm like what's the point?
Sorry if I've put you on a downer with my whining, I'll be better once AF arrives and the whole cycle starts again and I will have hit the 2 year ttc mark. Feckin brilliant.
Hope you girls are having a better day xxxxxxxxxx