Well so far he's done alot of damage to not only our relationship but our friendship too, i got cheated on last year, he dumped my the day before xmas eve and left me very angry and very upset, nearly ruined my xmas, messed me around from week to week. I suggested keeping things amicable which i think he should be bloody grateful for...i wish i could be mean but it's not inmy nature so instead i sit back and get used as a doormat. Hate myself for having any love left for him. Financially he helps, who cares, i need emotional support which i only get evry now and then. Any special occasion, the scan, buying the pram etc is ruined by his moods. He's more hormonal than me, one minute having a go, the next he's nice as pie, then having a go again ( about nothing, he just snaps, he has nothing to have a go about, just niggly things i might do to annoy him) then nice again! Found out today i have strep B, rang him to explain and well i don't even know what he was shouting at me for, i really have no idea, so i hung up, i don't have to listen to that! Also if we go anywhere near each other he tries it on, which i don't give in to anymore as hard as it is to turn down the man you love that your carrying a child with...but he doesn't want me, i don't get it. He's a closed book and gives nothing away but occasionally acts like he gives a shit! Anyway i'm so sorry but i feel so sad and angry at the same time and needed to let off some steam so there you have it. Does anyone know what makes these selfish things tick?? Maybe it's only there penis's after all?? haha, whoops sorry again, lol!! I do feel better now tho!