I'm absolutely desperate for labour to begin. I'm 12 (nearly 13) days overdue, having stretch and sweeps every day this week and we're sadly waiting for news on my husband's seriously ill grandfather who will probably not live to see baby. We're not expecting he will, but I feel terrible that I'm so late. I'm just not sure what emotion to feel actually. Frustrated, sad, excited, irritated... they're all mixed in together and no one feeling seems right or appropriate. I've never felt so helpless in my life. To cap it all, an induction I'm told in my position is likely to be very uncomfortable and I'm starting to dread that process if it happens. I've also just realised I've forgotten to send birthday and anniversary greetings to my grandparents today. That's not entirely honest actually. I was aware of it but didn't because of mixed feelings about my own family at the moment who have not been supportive in a major crisis I've been going through the last few months but the past few days kind of turfed any good intentions out of my mind with the distraction. I'm just miserable with this. Everything's wrong and I'm just completely powerless to change anything.